♥ Live what you love, love what you live.

2012-02-13T11:58:00.002+08:00

and I will make it even better.

2012-02-06T16:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Lunar Dragon New Year 2012!

This year seems to past by exceptionally fast! I reckon its because some of us are still the in New Year mood and the lunar new year falls around mid January this year. My family and I always went to visit my paternal grandma before to our maternal's. & since my paternal grandma is staying with my aunt now, we had been going over every year since my grandpa passed away about 3 years ago.

Nothing much this year, just some visiting to my uncles and aunts house. A simple gathering & gambling with my relatives, simple and fun with the laughter and rejoicing =)

Above: My new year day 1 dress which I got from Malacca last year.

Love how simple it is with the dedicate black lace details which surrounds the bottom of my bright orange dress. I matched it with a emerald green chunky necklace from Diva! With a matching simple earring from Shi Hua's sis.

Above: My papa =)

He looks so tired and seems to age so fast since the last time I took a good look of him.

Pillar of my family. I wish my papa good health and strong always!

Above: My TANS! We never fail to take a family photo every new year =)

Above: My parents with my paternal grandma.

I wish her well and good health too. She is a good cook. She is a nice person.

I rarely visit her as I am not as close to her as compared to my maternal grandma,

but I wanna make it a point to visit her whenever I can cause life is unpredictable and family is one thing I think non can miss out.

Above: My brother and I. Someone commented that he looks like TinTin!

Above: My paternal grandma is a awesome cook and I love her teochew cuisine!

Above: My maternal 2nd uncle is a chinese cuisine cook!

He is making some yummy specialty of his!

Above: While waiting, took some pictures with my youngest cousin - mixed with Vietnam blood!

Above: TADA! My uncle made this yummy chicken soup base with herbals + chic wing & scallop!

I am the only one with the glass bowl with chic wing while the rest like my aunts & cousins use a normal plastic bowl and have no chic wing/drum at all! Feels so loved!

*****

Above: New year day 2 dressing! Got this pale banana bare back dress from VGY a couple of years back!

Got a chance to wear it now, & I paired it with a bring orange & black chunky necklace from Diva.

Above: My bro and I at my aunt house =)

Above: Last and not least, my lovable wahable!

Had a relatively simple new year this year with my family and Shi Hua and his family.

For people which matters to me alot, I will make up for them when I have the time definitely.

2012-01-17T15:44:00.007+08:00

My gelish nail set for the upcoming Chinese New Year :)

This is my first time doing manicure and the feeling is sooo good!

Thanks to Clara, whom is my secondary school junior, who upload her set of nails on twitter, & at the same time, my secondary classmate Phyllis (who just started her own home based nail salon as well @ Facebook! Her skills are awesome too!) had another appointment with her customer when I told her I wanted the slot she told me but I replied her at a very late timing.

Its an home based nail salon, its my first time there and the lady is very cherry and nice :)

Here's her address if you are interested:

Sally Lau, 9187 6126

Teck Whye Ave Blk 116

#03-742 Singapore 680116

(By appointment only)

*****

It was a day of running errands and I was very exhausted and tired.

Nevertheless I enjoyed having this me-time doing some shopping for the upcoming cny.

Went to visit the doctor for my sinus which had worsen over the weekend. The doctor said that it was virus and a lot of people were having flu just before the new year. I cannot believe that I waited for a good 1 & a half hour in exchange for a mere few mins with the doctor :(

Thereafter, I went to Paragon for a review appointment with my skin specialist, made my way to Chinatown to get some cny goodies for my family, grandparents, & for Eunice whom I frequented for my waxing sessions, dropped by my grandparents' house as I miss them terribly, rushed to Sally's house for my first time manicure session, rushed my way to Eunice's house for my waxing session & lastly, went to get some cny goodies for my home.

*****

I have been going to Eunice's house for my waxing sessions for the past 2 years and I am loving it still. She is very amicable person, with a positive character and a very professional lady. I like her! Thats why I always go back for more waxing! Its comfortable, relax and affordable :) She's a home based salon as well and she doesn't hard sell which I like!

Here's her address if you are interested:

Eunice, 9322 2408

Jelebu Road Blk 184 #07-34

Singapore 658184

(By appointment only)

2012-01-11T10:11:00.000+08:00

My company's Facebook page was created yesterday and I hope to achieve more "likes" for it!

Please help to spread the news and love around for me people! :)

(http://www.facebook.com/decobarpteltd)

In case you are wondering, decobar is a interior design and renovation firm based in Singapore since its sphere of operation in 2005. We did projects for both commercial / residential in countries like Hong Kong, Malaysia, Taiwan etc in the asia pacific region. For more infor about our portfolio or having any doubts, feel free to drop by to our website at:

(http://www.decobar.com.sg)

2012-01-07T09:56:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year 2012!

Another brand new year, another year of ups and downs.

I know its not gonna be an easy year cause after-all, I am reaching adulthood in October.

Life still needs to go on and its inevitable that sadness, disappointments or other negative feelings that are gonna happen on us.

We cant avoid, we cant predict either, all we can do is to make the best out of everything. We learn from the mistakes that we are gonna make, learn from people who are wise, pick ourselves up whenever we fall, share the joy whenever happiness come.

Life is never easy but we can make it easier with our own hands.

* * *

My resolutions for the year 2012 is very simple and (needs to be) practical and I really hope I can abide to them cause if I don't, I will feel really guilty and frustrated. I cant help how I feel cause it just come so naturally in me.

I wish I can remain in contacts with my friends from all walks in my life; I really hope I can do so cause after being in the working society, I realized I have been missing so much and I really hate it. I really like having the attention from my friends, I really enjoy talking to my friends and we can talk about a lot of things like we used to.

I know I am being skeptical but twitter and facebook is really a good proof to show if friends actually do remember me and the things I am doing. I actually feel neglected and dislike most of the times. At some point it felt so strong, I just wanna disappear from everywhere and not wanting to let anyone know my whereabouts, my doings and all. I am feeling so sour within me..

I hope I can be focused and really think of what path I wish to take so as to have a better future. So I need to make sure I take up my degree course by the end of 2012.

I hope I can take up more courses related to my current job to expand my knowledge.

I hope I can do some sidelines (achievements) and earn / save more money by the end of 2012.

I wanna spend more time with my fam members / grandparents / friends.

I wish I can have a great 21st birthday.

* * *

I really hope I can create a great 2012 for my fam / friends / colleagues / Shi Hua.

Things can never be perfect but I will try my best to minimize mistakes and of cause, to do the best out of everything.

2011-12-25T10:42:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas 2011! ♥

Its my first time spending Christmas with my colleagues at work (decobar) & I really enjoyed it!

We had a mini celebration in the office and not to forget gift exchange as well!
Joanne and I went to J8 to collect the pastries she ordered from The Coffee Bean a few days before!

The pastries are very yummy cause if you noticed, there's smoked salmon!
Anything with smoked salmon will definitely be loved by me, as always!

However the rest of the items tasted equally good too!
They offered different kinds of pastries catered for different occasions as well!

(http://www.coffeebean.com.sg/coffeebean/showcat.cfm?mcat=20)

We also got a green tea with red bean log cake from The Icing Room!

Look at all the presents under the Christmas tree!
Makes us all very happy indeed!

(Boss - Designer) Vincent with his gift from Mandy!

(Lady Boss) Joanne with her gift from me!

I got her a pair of earrings made of swarovski crystals.
I thought it really suited her as its simple, classic & elegant :)

(Sales Manager) Randy with his gift from Betty!

(Sales Exec) Betty with her gift from Randy!

(Designer) Mandy with her gift from Vincent!

(Me!) With my gift from Joanne!

Such an coincidence! We actually got gifts for our fellow colleagues of the same/similar position!

Etc: (Designers) Vincent to Mandy // Mandy to Vincent
(Sales Exec) Randy to Betty // Betty to Randy
(Admin) Joanne to Me // Me to Joanne

Its a very simple celebration I had with my colleagues and its very fun and engaging :)
I really love decobar!

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I dint celebrate my Christmas this year with any of my friends but did have a gift exchange with them too!

Above: All the gifts I got from my friends, Shi Hua and colleagues :)

Above: I received this leather-like two way clutch from Joanne :)

& I unknowingly chose it for myself!
Just the other day, Joanne and I went to get hampers for our clients at Shaw Tower,
& we went into Mango as they are having sales, Joanne took a lot items and kept asking me for opinions,
I thought it was all for herself!

So I chose this clutch and unknowingly it become mine cause I said its the nicest one of all :)

Above: Joanne also got us (Mandy & Betty) a authentic LeSport pouch!

Above: Cute notebook and jab-like pen from colleague, Betty :)

Above: Chocolates from Man Xuan :)

Above: Pendant and some sweets with a short sweet note from Seaweed :)

Above: Bodyshop Lotion & Shower Gel from Xinrong :)

Above: Secret Code game from Yuyun :)

Above: GNC Salmon Supplement & Authentic Agnes B bag from my dearest Shi Hua ♥

I never expect he to get any present for me as he kept reminding me,
that the air ticket to Dubai was my present for many occasions!

I kept disturbing and teasing him cause its really fun and cute to do so :P
I dint expect anything from him cause I understand the ticket itself is an very expensive item from him.

So I am really surprised, blessed and contented with his actions and love towards me.
I dint get anything for him but he dint mind at all and I felt very guilty over it :(

Thank you Shi Hua for everything you gave me!
I will appreciate you, your love for me & everything about you :)

Hope you have an enjoyable Christmas too!
xoxo

2011-12-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

Meet up with Seaweed and Pohling together with Shi Hua on a Thursday night for dinner!

Manxuan is supposedly to join us but unfortunately she needs to be at home for 冬至!

I brought them to Crab Shack for dinner & they love it!

Its located at a normal coffeeshop at Ang Mo Kio area & its near to my office,

so my colleagues and I will go there for lunch at times!

The stall mainly has crabs as their main ingredient in their signature dishes -

Like Crab Spaghetti, Crab Au Gratin!

(http://www.facebook.com/pages/Crab-Shack-Singapore/211007922254077)

Crab Shack:

Blk 107, Ang Mo Kio Ave 4 Street 11,

Ang Mo Kio, Singapore 560107

After dinner, we went to Salted Caramel for some ice cream!

Again, its located near my office building!
My office building is located near Upper Thomson & Sin Ming thus it explains all the food locations!

(http://www.facebook.com/pages/Salted-Caramel/178030415577206?sk=wall&filter=1)

Salted Caramel:
246G Upper Thomson Road,
Thomson Garden Estate, Singapore.

Above: Pohling, Shi Hua and I shared this waffle with 3 scoops of ice cream topped with maple syrup!
Salted Caramel, Holick and Earl Grey!

I personally love the salted caramel flavour but none like it like I do cause they felt that its not the normal sweet kind of ice cream thus they do not enjoy it as much as I do!

Above: Seaweed has the Strawberry and Earl Grey ice cream.

Then we moved outside for some warmth as the air con in the shop is too cold for us!

Exchanging of presents!

The girls reading the letter I wrote for them!

I wrote a letter instead as its very old school and I love receiving handwritten letters cause they never fail to give me a heartwarming and loving feeling so I wrote them one instead of the usual birthday cards!

I got them both the same present in the same design but different color :)

I dint know which wrapper is for which color (of the present) so I asked them to pick randomly!
I thought the gold one suits Seaweed more while the pink one suits Pohling more :)

Am so glad they love it!

Wrote this note for Seaweed!

Inside joke!

2011-12-12T15:06:00.005+08:00

It’s a month full of love, activities, fun and events!

I am fully booked for lots of events practically for the rest of the month and I know I am going to enjoy it!

From today onwards, everyday is a happy day because …

On the 12th, Monday

Bridesmaids last meeting with the beautiful bride Manxuan at her house and preparation for her wedding morning for the next day!

On the 13th, Tuesday

The actual day for Manxuan’s wedding! My first time being a sister and the gate crash shall begin! Followed by the wedding dinner and reunion dinner with secondary classmates as well!

On the 14th, Wednesday

Half day leave to replenish my sleep and dinner with Shi Hua and his good friend!v

On the 15th, Thursday

Dinner with the beautiful wife Manxuan, Seaweed and Shi Hua!

On the 16th, Friday – Some me-&-him time with Shi Hua of cause <3

& it’s my best friends’ 20th birthdays! Siling and Seaweed!

On the 17th & 18th

Working days!

It’s my best friend’s 20th birthday as well! Pohling!

On the 19th, Monday

Collecting of Xmas gift for the person I’d picked up for co xmas exchange!

On the 23th, Friday

Co Xmas gift exchange and mini celebration!

On the 24th, Saturday

Xmas eve we may have a BBQ session with Shi Hua and friends!

On the 25th, Sunday

Applied leave and gonna nua and nua the day away!

On the 26th, Monday

May meet up with Xin Rong and Yuyun for a mini dinner gathering and gift exchange!

Gonna work for 2 days and …..

29th- 31th

Co trip to Malaysia!

Oh yay!

Oh how I love Dec 2011 :*)

2011-12-09T10:29:00.003+08:00

Its so touching. I teared while watching this video. I really cant help it.

Its a must watch - a video filled with warmth and love.

2011-12-08T16:07:00.000+08:00

Feelings - Saw this post from Ohsofickle and I too some time out and read the comments posted by some of her readers. The comments kept me thinking and also made me realized a lot of things that I never or should have think of before / during / after a relationship.

Here's some comments that kept me thinking hard and deep.

1) Talked about this topic with the few of my friends before. And I really agreed with one of them. She says that if the boyfr ever cheated, she will first blame herself. For not being able to be that girlfr the boy wanted. And then she will blame the boy, for not loving her enough to accept her flaws. But the moment she thought of giving up, she always remind herself of the good times with the boy, and how well the boy had doted you. There's this quote on twitter: "Every time I try to let go, I think of the reason that kept me holding on."

2) Tammy, hmm, mine was that my husband is with me for many years and I was busy with bringup my children that he was cheating on me for many years, wedding bands, couple blowup size photo frame, condoms and finally I have access to all his hotmail, gmail and even Skype. However, through those mails, I found out one things, is not so bad that he is communicating with other girl but some girls are not stupid, they can sense it and even analyse with him why he is cheating, is it yr wife can't satisfied you. The answer was various. However, the recent one was most educating, he met up with a plain looking girl becos looks as he mentioned in the mail is not important, different guys seek for different needs from these girl, in true fact they do not love them but what to fill that gap. They will eventually come back to you but just that they do have their needs that we can't meet and dare not to voice out in front of us. I even went thru books on the library on relationship and study into my case, really the books in the library help.

3) Hey babe I feel you. My bf and i drifted as well. Initially, i thought the reason was because we were both busy with work&school. I felt neglected, and became closer to one of my guy friend. I kept asking if he has another girl cuz yknow, girls tend to have this instinct?? He kept denying. Yet accused that i was the one who did him 'wrong'. Eventually, we decided to break up. And we broke up for about 2months?

Then recently i found out that actually he's been seeing a THAI GIRL?!?!?! WTF? He even flew to bkk TWICE to find her. I was really devastated when i found out cuz the first time he flew there to find her, we were actually still together though rocky. That was in July. The irony was that i was in thailand at that point of time as well with my gf, yet he's there with a thai girl!? i kept contacting him when i was there but to no avail. When he's finally back from bkk in sg, he told me he had a school camp and he misplaced his phone thats why i couldnt reach him. I actually BELIEVED him. such a fool right??
Although i do know that he went thailand in august, what i didn't know was that it was his 2ND trip. And he kept assuring me that he's going there alone to rewind and relax, do some shopping before school reopens. Last month or so, i started receiving weird hints that my bf may actually be seeing another girl. Like there'll be someone on my fs asking "does your bf has a twin cuz he looks like mine" etc... and all. I asked him again and he denied everything. The last straw came when an anonymous sent me an email filled with pictures of my bf & the thai girl having their holidays in bkk.
Cried like hell as well, but in the end... i still decide to forgive him. I could tell he's sincerely apologetic. But i felt rather hateful as well cuz when we broke up, he pushed all the blame to me when in fact, he was more in fault. We just got back together for a month ++, and we're going into our 5th year soon. I still do get reminded of this unhappy incidents every now and then. But i constantly remind myself to refrain from mentioning about this incident infront of him cuz we'll both be unhappy in the end &end up quarrelling.

Honestly, this relationship no longer feels the same anymore. Maybe cuz i can no longer see him the same way as before. But i cant deny that whenever im with him, i still feel happy and at ease. Perhaps that's why i've decided to be back together with him. I can forgive but i can never forget. It's hurtful but i guess time helps to heal everything!

4) Well i dont believe in second chances. im a cheat myself so i know very well tt i cudnt if i wanted to, but i chose to do it. to put myself before the other so i do t belueve for a second tt anyone who betrays somebody's trust "didnt know what he/she was doing". i know tt i tend to do funny things when im high and i choose to do so when i can easily have less to drink. if you really love someone ud always have tt person at the back of ur mind. grey areas? like the previous comment said. its all abt intention. so things like these.. if sb i love did do smth like this to me, i can see pass it and still stay w him but he will never have my complete trust again. insecurity and suspisions. how can you ever be sure anymore? faith? take it if you want but dont cry when you fall again. you knew of the implications.

5) Tammy, follow your heart. If you think that your boyfriend has the propensity to change for you, it can happen. But healing and restoring trust takes a long time, and you just need to be patient with each other. If you think he is the one for you for the rest of your life, stay but let him know that he has to face the consequences of his actions (your insecurities) and it is up to him to help you recover from this ordeal. If you stay, you must remember that you cannot be quiet about your insecurities, talk to him all the time, it helps. You cannot be alone.

6) If you people forgive your boyfriends repeatedly over incidences of cheating, be it 'harmless' flirting, pecks on the cheek or anywhere else, constant texting, it's not your boyfriends that are the bastards. You can blame yourself for being stupid and being allowed to be taken for fools. Men will never love women they cannot respect, and they cannot respect you when you can't even respect yourself, because you allow him to blatantly involve another woman in your relationship. Cheating involves intention. And if you try to trivialize the matter, or persuade yourself it's only a one time thing, you're just asking to be hurt again.

7) Love doesn't bring and has never brought happiness. On the contrary, it's a constant state of anxiety, a battlefield. It's sleepless nights, asking ourselves all the time if we're doing the right thing. Real love is composed of ecstasy and agony.

2011-12-08T14:58:00.000+08:00

Some of the weddings that I'd attended in year 2011 ^.^

I love to attend weddings as its a very blissful event whereby family members and friends gather to give you their blessings, & of cause tying the knot with the one you love for life.

Got the pictures from my cousin and the rest; Shi Hua's friends.

Above: My paternal (eldest) cousin's marriage.

Groom: (Rui Chuan) White blazer with black strips

Bride: (Jia Feng) Beautiful glazing red night gown

(From top left): Paternal uncle and aunt, my cousin & cousin in law, 姑姑, me & bro, 姑姑's in law.

(Seated from left): 姑丈 & son, my father & mummy, maternal grandpa & cousin, 姑姑's mother in law

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Above: Shi Hua's secondary friend's ROM.

Groom: (Zhihao) Grey and white formal shirt

Bride: (Sansan) Cute white dres with black belt strap

Almost all of his friends from secondary school are there with their partner.

I felt really awkward at first cause I felt really young and I don't really know them,

other than Pohling's elder sis and Shi Hua and a few which I am really not close with.

However now, I felt more at ease as I hang out with them often for movies & dinners!

Above: They called themselves LibCampers!

As they often hang out (camped) & study in the NUS library to chiong for studies in a group during their uni days!

Therefore (Lib)rary(Campers)!

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Above: Shi Hua and I with the groom Gabian.

Shi Hua being the brother for the day!

They are friends since JC days, aww time really flies!

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Above: Wedding of Shi Hua's army friend

Groom: (Zhengyi) Smart blazer with black bow

Bride: (Mandy) Vintage white evening gown

2011-12-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

Dubai 5D4N Overseas Trip!
18-23 May 2011 -

This is a very unexpected holiday trip for me as I'd never thought that I'll have the chance to visit such an exotic and beautiful Arabic country ever ^.^

Overview of how I got to fly to Dubai:
Shi Hua is being posted to Dubai a number of times by his company for outstation and this time round, he is supposedly to stay there for a whole month but as quoted from him:

"I cant bear to leave you behind for one whole month so I request to stay for week only!" - damn sweet.

He needed to be there as his boss in Dubai wanted him over to help and whatsnot. So his company in Singapore sent another colleague over and I had the pleasure to get to know and understand her more.
She's non other than Li Jun but I followed Shi Hua and called her Jun instead.

As this is the first time Jun is being posted to Dubai, as her senior and team led, Shi Hua needs to guide her along and eventually familiarize with the place and culture & so thats why he needs to be there for a week.

So I was still working in the agent company and Shi Hua asked if I wanted to join him in Dubai for a short getaway and to experience the life there, as according to him, he wouldn't go back there as a tourist cause firstly, he went there a number of times and its not worth it at all due to the expensive air tickets and hotel stays.

Initially I rejected him cause it felt weird cause partly I was afraid that my parents will disagree as I will be flying there alone although he offered to pay for my air ticket which cost about 1.2k which I felt its ridiculously high! But in the end he convinced me as the hotel will be paid by his company and so after much hesitation, I agreed.

Some problems that fluctuated along the way:
I remembered very clearly the number of problems I faced before I fly for Dubai.

Firstly, I need to apply urgent leave from my boss but he went for a short trip to Malaysia and I couldn't get an answer from him. The was the time I am hating my job so I couldn't care any more, I want to get my leave.

I am unable to contact Shi Hua via Skype as reception in my house was bad and the WiFi was down so it was damn difficult to contact him.

I remembered 17 May Tuesday was Vesak Day and it was a public holiday, Shi Hua told me to fly on the very night but because I couldn't get any reply from my boss, I don't dare to book the ticket. Because of this I thought I could not get to fly over so I was very depressed, Shi Hua too.

On the very next morning my boss replied me and said yes and I was damn happy!

So I told Shi Hua immediately and he made the unnecessary arrangements immediately as well! However when he told me to look out for an SMS that was sent to my phone to verify the booking, as it has to be made through my own debit card but I dint get any SMS after a very long time thus I got very panicked, so I rushed home to look for my old SIM card as Shi Hua told me it may be sent over to my old number.

My mum and I rushed back home and turned my room upside down just to look for the card!

Unable to find it and was very devastated and Shi Hua called me and I told him I couldnt find it,
he gave me hope by saying this:

"Called the Emirates Airline to book your ticket for tonight!"

& so I packed my luggage for the night and off to catch my plane at 0140AM ^.^

*****

Went to the Airport alone as I quarreled with my mum over something really small :(

But we rekindled after a very short while after I reached the airport.

Went to check in immediately and I felt so refreshed and happy!

I forgot when's the last time I last took a plane to some other country and I felt very energetic.
Took a snip of hot milo while waited for the time to pass by, roamed around and waited again.

I never felt so excited.

Above: S$1 : 2.864 AED Dollar
This is the exchange rate now.

United Arab Emirates Central Bank; Dirham (AED) is Dubai's currency.

Above: I had my many first times during this trip and I thank God for Shi Hua seriously.
Without him, this trip to Dubai can never be possible.

Its my first time flying off to a country I'd never been before.
Its my first time flying off to a Arabic country.
Its my first time taking an Emirates plane.
Its my first time flying off at such an unearthly hour.

Above: Interior of the Emirates plane.

There's movies from the latest ones to the way before ones.
My flight was a 7 hour one and the time is 4 hours behind Singapore's timing.

The guy next to me was a Singaporean Chinese and we kinda chatted for a few hours before we both knock out during the long air flight and I felt so assured when someone from the same country as me is just beside me.

Above: Arrived at the Dubai's airport at about 5AM in the morning.

I was so tired and blur due to the 7 hour flight so I nearly walked to the wrong side of the airport. Everything is so clean, fresh, in order. So much different from what I have been thinking! After all, its a Arabic country! ^.^

Above: The buildings along the Dubai City.
While in the cab, on the way to the hotel. The buildings along the street of the city of Dubai; rather magnificent and glorious. So different from one and another, you really can differentiate them individually!

Took a cab alone and I was terrified! I am in a Arabic country mind you!

Above: Media One Hotel; located at Media City of Dubai.

I reached the hotel safe and sound with Shi Hua welcoming me!
With his hotel room's slippers hahahaha!

Gave him a warm big hug upon seeing him :*)

Above: Media One Hotel swimming pool located at level 8.

Weather is awesome but super hot! It hits up to 36-40 degree that few days!
Went to roam around the hotel alone as Jun and Shi Hua needs to work on that day so I went to explore around to cure my curiosity! ^.^

Just for information: The working days in Dubai is from Sunday - Thursday.
Friday and Saturday is their weekends and resting days!

Above: The layout and design of our room.

Simple and clean. Its a 4 Star Hotel by the way.
Our room is located near the dining area thus we have free Wifi to use! Yay!

Above: Meet Jun! ^.^

This is Shi Hua's colleague and whom did him a great favor as he rejected to stay for a whole month!
Braved myself and took a cab over to Internet City to meet Jun and Shi Hua for lunch!

Above: The location is near their company and its located at Internet City.

Internet City is the largest Information and Communications Technology cluster hosting both global and regional companies.
Media City is a thriving business community hosting both global and regional media.

Above: My favourite photos out of the whole lot of the day! ^.^
Everything's perfect - background, us, beautiful weather & glorious colours of the place.

Than I went back to the hotel and took a short nap as they need to work and I am tired because of the long flight that I took in the early morning.

Above: The Dubai Aquarium; Underwater Zoo located at The Dubai Mall.
Its the largest indoor underwater zoo/world (under Guinness World Records). Its magnificent!

Above: Click to view The Dubai Aquarium video!

Above: Click to view The Dubai Mall - Largest Shopping Mall in the world.

Shi Hua took us to The Dubai Mall for dinner and to explore as well!

Indeed an eye opener for me for sure ^.^

Above: The Dubai Mall's food place.

It has several different cuisine located in the same food place; Lebanese cuisine, fast food etc.
The amount of stalls available there will let you be spoil for choices!

Above: Jun with the painting in The Dubai Mall's food court.

Above: Me with my butter chicken as dinner!

Above: The Dubai Fountain located outside The Dubai Mall.

After dinner, we went around to explore and look around and Shi Hua took us to outside & told us its a must see!

Above: Look at the video to have a feel of the Mall!

Above: The world's tallest building; (under Guinness World Records) Burj Khalifa -
is just located outside of the mall.

We dint manage to go up to the building to view, however the overall view on the outside is grand enough!

http://www.burjkhalifa.ae/the-tower/worlds-tallest-towers.aspx

Click on the link above! You will be amazed! ^.^

Above: Me & Burj Khalifa!

Above: By the river bank outside The Dubai Mall.

Lovely.

That marks the end of my first day in Dubai!

I simply cannot explain how trilled and excited I am still whenever I look at the photos and all the advantages I took just this trip! This trip really wow-ed me and made me very satisfied.

I never once regret agreeing to come to this trip and if I have the chance,
I would like to visit the country again!

Thank you dear dear, my parents ^.^

For a summary post

Day 2 will be up soon I hope when I have more time!
I took way too long to post as I am damn busy!

2011-12-06T17:11:00.001+08:00

插班生 @ Crazy World Cafe; 10年100大音乐会 Music Showcase

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上个礼拜与世华参加了插班生在 Crazy World Cafe 主办的 10年100大音乐会 Music Showcase。

自己不是很爱她们，但我一直认为世华很喜爱她们，所以就自做主张的买了票；

主要的原因也是想要让他开心一下，但我却没发现开场的时间竟然是晚上的十点钟。。

直到当天晚上，我才让他知道我买了票，想要和他一起去听音乐会；

刚巧不巧，他前几天病了，当天他又去了兵营跑了几个小时的步，当晚又下着绵绵细雨；

让我真的有点心烦意乱，不知所措。

我们还是去了，我们在漫步时，他告诉我其实他并不是很爱她们，

只是一时新鲜，一切只不过如此。。

到了。我们还得等上15分钟，他有点不耐烦了，我有点紧张因为我不想让他不高兴；

进场了，有点期待，还是有点紧张因为我的脑海里只浮现了一句话 -

“到底几时会结束?"

我多想了，表演太精彩了，插班生和主持人与观众的互动也到佳。

她们选的歌曲真的都很有意思。

真的让我刮目相看，听出耳油。我好像喜欢上她们了。

亲切。友善。搞笑。热闹。认真。柔顺。

很真的一个表演。

她们所选的歌多好有意思，自己特爱其中一首的。。

歌词好有意思，反映出了我的心声。让她们那么一唱，那首歌就已融入我的心中了。

心里好高兴；就因为他的一句话 -

I enjoyed it very much! :-)

那句再简单不过的一句话，让我高兴了好久好久。。

*****

达尔文

我的青春　也不是没伤痕是明白爱是信仰的延伸

什麼特徵　人缘还是眼神也不会预知爱不爱的可能

保持单身　忍不住又沉沦兜著圈子来去又是苦等

人的一生　感情是旋转门转到了最後真心的就不分

有过竞争　有过牺牲　被爱筛选过程

学会认真　学会忠诚　适者才能生存

懂得永恒　得要我们　进化成更好的人

我的青春　有时还蛮单纯相信幸福取决於爱的深

读进化论　我赞成达尔文没实力的就有淘汰的可能

我的替身　已换过多少轮　记忆在旧情人心中变冷　

我的一生　有几道旋转门　转到了最後只剩你我没分

有过竞争　有过牺牲被爱筛选过程

学会认真　学会忠诚适者才能生存

懂得永恒　得要我们进化成更好的人

有过竞争　有过牺牲被爱筛选过程

学会认真　学会忠诚适者才能生存

懂得永恒　得要我们进化成更好的人

懂得永恒　得要我们　

进化成更好的人进化成更好的人

2011-12-05T17:54:00.000+08:00

Company X'mas Tree Preparation

2011-12-05T12:26:00.001+08:00

Left: Bvlgari Rose Essentielle EDP Women 100ml

Right: Salvatore Ferragamo - Incanto Shine EDT Women 100ml

Shi Hua got these 2 bottle of perfumes for me from his company Xmas' promotion!

Original price for S$316 & after discount for only S$126 for 2 bottles 100mls each!

Saved a total of S$190 which is equivalent to more than half!

Its my first 2 bottle of perfume and I loved it very much!

I am addicted to sweet scents and pretty bottles :-)

Its my wish to collect perfumes and those cute little bottles but someone once told me that its better not to collect perfumes as they evaporate so it will be such a waste.

However, I already have a travel pack perfume collect from Shi Hua when he was outstation for the CK & Dior perfumes; a pack of 5 mini different bottles & scents in them!

So I may just start to collect them soon when I have more!

2011-12-02T15:19:00.000+08:00

Chiang Mai Overseas School Trip!
12-17 March 2006 -

2011-12-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

Malaysia (Johor) 1D Trip!

29 March 2011 -

2011-11-30T15:41:00.000+08:00

Company X'mas Gift Exchange Preparation

Name tags that I've prepared for my colleagues & myself!

For us to pick randomly and whoever we have picked up, we will to get something for them!

2011-11-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

Batam Trip One Day One Night Tour!

18-19 November 2011 -

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Its our first overseas trip together and we are very excited and very anticipating over it!
We got the one day one night trip from Groupon!

$68 per pax for 2D1N Batam Escapade with Mercure Batam Hotel Stay + Return Ferry + Meals + City Tour + 60 min Massage (Worth $138)

Here are some details of the Groupon ticket that we got:

What You Get:
Mercure Batam stay
Return ferry ticket
2-way land transfer
Welcome drink
Buffet breakfast
7-course seafood lunch
City and shopping tour
60 min traditional body massage
50000RP shopping cash voucher at Batam 1st factory outlet (minimum spending of 200000RP)
15% off food and beverage in the hotel

Groupon Excludes:
Passenger's departure fee: S$6 per pax
Fuel surcharge: S$14 per pax (payable upon collection of boarding pass)
Batam terminal fee: S$7 per pax (payable upon departure from Batam ferry terminal)
Driver and guide tip: S$2

You must always make sure you read through the terms & conditions if you intend to purchase anything / before you purchase any tickets from Groupon itself as there are some requirements and things that they did not include into the What You Get category.

That happened on Shi Hua and myself cause after we made the payment, we went to read through the fine prints of the voucher article, we realized that they did not include our return ticket and some other charges which we need to pay for though it was stated on the voucher that we get the 2 way ferry ticket. Therefore upon checking in and collecting of our ferry tickets, we need to make payment for the ferry fares and whatsnot. If not we cant return back to Singapore cause ...

If we dont make payment for the fuel charges = the ferry cannot move = we are stuck in Batam & unable to return.

Smart move to earn money huh.

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So the night before was actually Shi Hua's friend's wedding dinner and we got home really late.
Saw a lot of his friends from JCs', friends of friends and primary school too. They are friendly and chirpy but I felt really young! They are all of the age of 30s' while I am only 20. So it made me kinda weird and 'small' hahahaha.

Woke up around 6AM and got prepared before we cabbed to Harbour Front Ferry Terminal.

Above: Deardear and my meow luggage bag from Joyce!

Took some pictures of Shi Hua and he is actually quite camera shy! Unless needed if not he dont really like the idea of being in the limelight. & he rarely take pictures of me too :( even he do, its always one of my most unglam moments!

Above: Reached Batam in about 30-40 mins! I never expect the ride to be so fast and steady & I almost showed no signs of seasick.

Went to look for our tour guide of the day and off we go!

Itinerary of The Day:
Shop at local authentic Ralph Lauren store
Visit to local products // handicraft store
Visit to local handmade snacks // kueh store
Visit to local handmade (famous) Kueh Lapis - Homebased
Shop at local factory outlet
7 course seafood lunch by the pond
Visit to the "Dua Pek Gong" temple
2 & a half hours in Batam Shopping Mall
1 HR massage
Check into hotel
Own self own target dinner time

Above: We went to some local store for some local snacks.

We dint get much except for one special prawn crackers which are made from crackers + vege bits + prawn paste & a box of honey pandan cake!

Above: Caught some acrobatics performance before heading for lunch!

Impressed with tearing the coconut skin off the coconut with his teeth only (first picture) &

eating raw glass (first 2 pictures of 2nd picture) & jumping through a fire hoop!

Impressive performance with strings attached:

Tips needed.

Above: We went to some local family' semi detached to look at their freshly made Kuah Lapis!

With no extra coloring and preservatives.

Shi Hua & I got a total of 3 boxes and it cost us about S$80?

Its 1kg for one box and its very heavy as we need to carry them around before we check in for departure.

Above: The place where we had our lunch; a place by the pond and it has a rather strong kampong feel to it. Dint managed to capture the food that we had as we are sharing the table with 8 other Singaporeans who joined the tour and they ate the food before I can even whipped out my camera!

They showed signs of how a typical Singaporeans would behave but they are very nice people! :)

Menu of The Lunch Served
Steamed Gong Gong
Mixed vegetable with tofu & dongfen soup
Steamed fish
Chilli crabs
Fried squid
Mixed vegetables
Prawns
+ 1 complimentary drink of your choice (Coconut // green tea // coke // 7-up // pepsi etc)

We also ordered one bowl of warm bird nest to share between Shi Hua & I!
With red dates and ginseng for the cost of S$15!

Above: The Dua Pek Gong temple

We went there after lunch for short walks // picture taking session // praying some some.

Above: Taken at the factory outlet! Isnt my wah and the meow so cuteee?

After all the walking and touring around, the tour guide left us at the Batam Shopping Mall to shop on our own. We spent about 2 & a half hours in the mall alone with 45 mins walking around and we dint managed to get anything + 1 hour plus sitting down at KFC playing games and chit chatting!

There's nothing to buy cause ...
Their clothes are something I wouldnt wear cause its at least 1-2 gens back,
their songs are at least 2-3 gens back.

It was so boring and tiring walking around aimlessly, we just decided to sit at KFC with a drink to pass time. Its a complete waste of time and we just thought why cant we checked into our hotel first?

Finally we went for our 1HR message. Man it was sooo good and relaxing! It felt really good although it was really itchy at some parts of mine! Although I dont think it was really an hour but it was long enough for me! Shi Hua and I shared a 'cubical' as we are a couple & it was separated by a curtain and the next couple was just behind it.

Served with a complimentary cup of ginger tea and off we go to our hotel!

Above: Dinner! Finally!

90% of the stores we saw are actually selling seafood and one one store selling chicken rice! Weird cause the tour guide told us there's many choices to choose from and its cheap /:

I wanted to have crabs but Shi Hua told me dont get it as we are in a foreign country and we might get hacked so to be safe we got the fried baby squids // stir-fry kailan // regular plate of hotplate tofu + one bowl of rice // one bottle of green tea & one bottle of China Apple drink and it cost us only S$21! Ridiculous cheap!

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After checking in the hotel after the message, we went rest for awhile and watched Kampong Ties!
Yesss awesome right I know there's Channel 8 in Batam hahahah!

Then we took a cab to a nearby food center for our dinner and the tour guide told us that there's nearby food center and the prices are relatively cheap! So we took a cab there (the cab is just a normal car on the street & please remember to ask for the fare before agreeing. Its better to be safe than sorry) and paid about S$7-8 for a to and fro trip.

Above: Lunch at A&W at the Mega Mall which is just opposite the ferry terminal.
It doesnt taste as good as the meat is salty and fries are hard.
But we LOVE the A&W with ice cream float!

As usual we walked around the mall and there's nothing to get or see so we just sit around to chat and rest before leaving to check in!

I think we are indeed the true Singaporeans with the true Singapore spirit -
The gates leaving for Singapore are supposedly to be open at only 4PM and we are already lining up when it was only about 330PM? I rushed Shi Hua to line up too cause I am super kan jiong when I saw so many people lining up too cause I am afraid good seats will be taken x.x

& he jokingly made fun of me: "Wanna run?! Later no seats!" & he demo the running part for me to see.

Conclusion of This Trip:
- Personal thoughts -

Well spending $95 for this 2 days 1 night trip is cheap but its not very fun. We need to carry our stuff around initially cause we dont know anyone in the bus just to be safe. Its very tiring as our stuff is quite heavy, especially for Shi Hua cause we put our stuff together into meow. After realising that all the people on board are Singaporeans, we are more relieved.

We are unable to check into our hotel even after lunch and some shopping and walking around which I think its atrocious. We only checked in after 6PM and basically we just carried our things including the local snacks that we bought around.

The most boring and time wasting part is actually the shopping mall. They gave us 2 & a half hours in a shopping mall and there's nothing for us to do so we can only rest at KFC for time to past by.

May not return again but if we happen to stumble upon a resort stay or beach stay voucher, I may consider! It might turn out more fun and relaxing then this one ya?

2 & a half stars for this trip!
Cause its cheap and Shi Hua & I never been to Batam before & the tour guide is really funny.
The food wasnt too bad and the massage is a plus point!

Of cause Shi Hua as my companion :*)

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Above: Some pictures of Shi Hua and I! ♥♥

Above: One pic of me!

Above: My dearest Wah!
Edited this photo for him and he loved it!
I loved it too! The color is soooo him! :-)

2011-11-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

Shi Hua & I are back from our 2 days 1 night Batam trip!

Blog soon after I edit all the photos! :D

Will be very busy with lotsa activities going on! :)

In a nutshell -

bestie's wedding preparations // bestie's wedding dinner night wear // shi hua's friends & colleagues' weddings // chinese new year 2012' wear // decoration of name tags for co' xmas gift exchange // decoration of AM's phone covers // personal grooming // co' bonding dinner(s) // co' road trip // co' xmas gifts exchange // besties' birthdays // meet up with besties & friends // work @ decobar & iShine

I need to complete them all within a short span of time!

Which is about a month or so!

So much to complete yet so little time but nevertheless I am really blessed!

With all the wonderful people God placed in my life :)

(I am not a strong believer in any religion but I respect every one of them.)

Thank you, so much!

2011-11-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

Fruit Stall

I felt so sad and dishearten whenever I pass by the empty fruit stall located in my office building's canteen. Yes that stall doesnt belongs to me but I just feel very down.

Initially Shi Hua's sis and brother in law is interested to venture into other businesses, & when they first moved into the building; which is relatively new, only a couple or a few more stalls were opened for business in the canteen. There's one small stall located beside the drink stalls and it was meant for a fruit stall. They got to know from Shi Hua that my father is specialized in fruits and fruit juices, that's his expertise; something which my father is familiar with at the tender age of 19.

So it all links up -

Shi Hua's sis and brother in law wanted to venture and invest in other businesses;

a fruit stall is empty and it was opened for bidding,

my father is specialized in fruits and juices,

another reason is a personal family reason.

So, we called up and tried to contact the person in charge of the stalls and asked him about the rental, it was priced at $3.5k initially and some other guy offered $3.6k/$3.8k. we are so anxious, and of cause my parents too. We all wanted to get the stall. My father wasnt very keen in the first place, as problems may arise and based on our relationship:

If things go well, Shi hua will be my boyfriend and my parents' employer,

Shi Hua's sis and brother in law will be my parents and my employer.

My parents worry that complications may arise.

My father is worried for me.

So we discussed it through and come into a conclusion, things will work out.

I assured them that Shi Hua's sis and brother in law are one of the best employers ever,

as mentioned by Shi Hua, which I strongly agree even up till this day.

They are extremely nice, patient, they dont have the big boss nasty behavior etc

My mum is so excited cause she can help out in the stall, she wouldnt be idling around at home while my brother can help out in the stall too so he wouldnt turn bad and able to learn something from my father too. While I can visit them everyday since I am working in the same office building as my father, Shi Hua's parents can come to help as well from time to time.

We thought of all the consequences and benefits and we thought its the best for everyone.

After negotiations, the guy in charge told that the other party will only gave an answer on Tuesday, so Shi Hua, Shi Hua's sis and brother in law met up with my parents on Sunday to discuss about all the details; we made it sound that we will get it for sure, we sounded really confident, just as we thought, cause we are going to let the person in charge knows the answer on Monday, which is a day earlier than the other party.

So my parents woke up really early cause they are too anxious, my mum especially. Although my father dint show his emotions out, I knew very well his heart is bumping hard too.

We arrived, was waiting for Shi Hua's sis and brother in law, and we called the person in charge -

the other party got it as he told the boss of the canteen that he wants it as he is the friend of the boss. My parents and I were speechless and down. Nothing we can do to salvage the situation. My mum cant believe her ears and kept asking the guy can we try to negotiate again.

The warm plate of food my mum bought was soon left there on its own cause my mum dont have the mood to consume anything.

The stall meant so much for my family and I.

It can really changed our life and as a family.

No one can really understand by how and why but it truly can and I believe to a so much better phrase.

I really believe that if we got the fruit stall things will turn out so good for everyone.

However things often dint turn out to be the way we wanted them to and my family is facing some serious problems which were yet to be entirely solved. In order to ~~solve~~ sustain the problem, I need to fork out half of my pay every month so as to allow the problem to remain the way it is & I can barely survive with the half of my pay for the rest of the month. Even I can control myself and restrict from buying all the material stuff, I still have to starve on some days. Thats why I took up 2 more jobs on a part time basis which is necessary.

Other than holding my full time job at decobar, I am working every Sunday at a retail kiosk and will be coaching my cousin every Tuesday and Thursday for his studies. I cannot help it, I need to save money and earn more. I wanna save more for further studies when I am 21, I have loans to pay and parents to feed. Its really terribly hard to see other people having to get whatever they want so god damn easily.

It sucks and I cried over that a few times. There's once my brother provoked me and I cannot control myself, I screamed my lungs out and went really insane, my mum tried to held on to me and asked me to calm down but I dont want to and it really scare my mum out. She was so scared I go crazy so she talked to me really softly and calmly, I scare my brother too. At that instant, I only wanted to release all my stress and the weights within me. I am carrying all of them within me for too long + I dint get enough sleep for a very long period of time so I literally went crazy.

So the only way to get a high paid job will be getting a degree and get another job.

I have a plan in mind and I need to evacuate it.

When I am concern, material good doesnt apply and appeal to me right now for sure.

I am girl and yes I crave for beautiful things & I still get them whenever I can cause I admit I cannot resist and its really hard to exercise self control. I tried to hint Shi Hua a few times too but being a geek he is (or he just wanna ignore me idk), he just dont get it. I am so pissed cause I want to get it but I have no money. So I would just ignore him for awhile but will always cooled down after he will crack me up like nothing happened.

Of cause I will always placed myself in his shoes to think about it and I dont wanna him to spend all these unceccessary money too. I also wish he can save more and earn more, be more hardworking so we can have a better future together; if we ever ended up in marriage, which I really hope we can.

Thank God for such wonderful parents / boyfriend and employers.

I cannot ask for more when God placed such wonderful people around me.

Although life really sucks to the extreme maximum, whenever I am with them, I can really feel the peace and bliss. They literally make me smile with the small acts they have done for me and I felt so grateful yet apologetic towards them.

I am still on my way to earn more money and save more too.

I am really trying my damn best to turn my life around.

& nope my life and family isnt associated with any loansharking kinda thing;

just some common problems most people faced, just a little more serious.

2011-11-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

Thank You <3

我发觉我最爱与你编写
以后明天的深夜
而每过一天每一天这情深者
便爱你多些再多些然后再多一些
我最爱你与我这生一起
那惧明天风高路斜
无求甚么无寻甚么
突破天地但求夜深
奔波以后能望见你
你可否知道么
平凡亦可平淡亦可
自有天地但求日出
清早到后能望见你
那已经很好过

2011-11-15T15:46:00.000+08:00

灵机一动，想到了可能只会在漫画或爱情小说出现的情节 -

我；是一个喜欢跟着感觉走的女生 -
很不切实际，但路途中富有浓厚的浪漫情感。

我；是一个不爱被人捆绑的女生 -
很不喜欢让人牵着鼻子走，但为了生存却无可奈何。

我；是一个偏爱浪漫爱情的女生 -
很梦幻的一个爱情故事，但如果能让自己托付终生的男生出现了,
我一定会与他过着幸福美满的下半生。

我；是一个让人抓摸不定的女生 -
但同时希望有那么一个他能了解我的心灵与感受；
只要一个动作，一句话，一个表情就能明白我当下的心情。

你是不是也是这样？

2011-11-10T13:26:00.000+08:00

My heart wrecked when I read this short story; I may not be like the man in this story who can simply ignore his father who was there for him in his life but I always make my mum sad by being temperamental and short tempered. I feel bad and apologetic whenever I did that to her cause I love her very much. Its not too late now cause I am trying my best to treat my mum the best I can, within my own means.

*****

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For

many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's

showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told

him that was all he wanted.

As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited

signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the

morning of his graduation his father called him into his private

study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine

son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son

a beautiful wrapped gift box.

Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man

opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily,

he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you

give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy

book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in

business.

He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his

father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He

had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make

arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had

passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He

needed to come home immediately and take care things.

When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and

regret filled his heart.

He began to search his father's important papers and

saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With

tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he

read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope

taped behind the Bible.

It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the

sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation,

and the words...

PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not

packaged as we expected?

2011-11-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

Brand New Gracious Aires Classic Cream Bag x1

- This is purely my own personal selling post; not affiliated to Gracious Aires -

Photos taken with iPhone 4; color is more creamy in real life.

*****

Above: How the bag looks like.

Above: The interior - able to put A4 papers/soft files.

Above: How it may look life after putting some stuff inside.

- Purely puffed up, nthg inside the bag -

*****

Material: Synthetic leather with gold plated stubs/buttons

- Will not tarnish easily -

Description: Able to put A4 papers/soft files, 2 main compartments & small one in front.

Detachable hand & shoulder carry strap

- One pair each -

Price: Original price @ $98/-

Willing to let go @ $75

Maintenance: Clean with wet tissue/Vaseline when there's visible dirt etc.

Do not clean with water.

Contact: ciaaaable@gmail.com

- Please only email when you are certain of getting the bag other than requesting of the photos! -

Disclaimer: Item sold is non-refundable/non-exchangeable.

Pictures will be provided upon request for better views of the bag.

Plastics and papers on the straps are still on the bag itself.

We will make sure the item is not defect in any way before letting it go.

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I believe this item is a classic design from Gracious Aires, however I am not using it due to me having far too many bags! So am letting go.

Please only email when you are certain of getting the bag other than requesting of the photos. Thanks! :)

2011-11-09T14:39:00.000+08:00

Whenever I heard this song, I am always reminded of my secondary 1-3 days;

I lost touch with most of my classmates and some remained as hi-bye friends &

I really felt its such a pity cause they are a bunch of great people.

All the fun we had is really irreplaceable.

If I have the chance, I would like to rewind the time back to my sec 1 days;

There's so much more in fact and I remembered some of them vividly still...

2011-11-08T11:24:00.001+08:00

It's an alternate (first) sat of the week so there's work at decobar! Vincent and Joanne went to KL for a business meet up thus the office is left with only Randy, Mandy and I!

Yeah the Phino colleague has left and we all felt its a relief! He is really making everyone in the office irritated! Other than Randy of cause. Am so glad that he actually got fired and left due to his working attitude and how he work! He actually have the guts to tell Joanne that he is used to have people working under him and this makes Joanne damn pissed off; so she told him that if Vincent and her know that he is only used to have people under him and asking them to work, they wouldn't even consider him! He still thinks he dint made any mistakes at work. His work always needs to amend or if not needs Vincent to redo everything. Wow, you are hired to do work, not commanding people to work!

Seriously, working with phinos are hard. They knows how to push the blames to others completely and act angelic. I had worked with a phinos before and I heard experiences which my friends encountered, oh well I can only say that sucks.

*****

Anyway had a short & fast meeting with the two of them and a few interviewees interviewed by Randy. He successfully hired a sales person; 24 female, chubby and above average looking, Singaporean chinese. I don't know, don't feel good about it but I need to get used to it real soon.

Aftermath met up with Shi Hua and had lunch at J8! & off to Marina Bay! We went to the Art Science Museum for Titanic Artifact Exhibition & Dalì Painting & Sculpture Exhibition!

More infor @ www.titanic.sg

We q-ed for about 15-20 mins for the tickets and we decided to go for both exhibitions; since it's cheaper as well! Singaporeans & PRs get 15% off the tic while OCBC card holders get 20% off! Thank God for my wahable and thus $21 per tic for both exhibitions! :-)

Above: Snap a couple of pictures within the exhibition hall of Titanic.

Its the interior of the walk way for the first class passengers.

Above: This is what you will be expecting once you enter the hall.

It says: " The story of Titanic has been told and retold, but never more poignantly and passionately than by the artifacts presented in the Exhibition. Respectfully recovered and painstakingly conserved, these objects, more than any word or image, tell the story of RMS Titanic and of her 2228 passengers and crew whose lives she changed forever. "

Above: All these can be seen in Marina Bay Sands' shopping center.

After both exhibitions, I can say I can't appreciate Dalì's one much. I think Shi Hua too /: it's just those typical paintings & sculptures that only those who appreciate art would understand. So we only spent less than 30 mins in there and out we go.

Overall I would very much prefer the Titanic one! It's grand and breathe catching; you can really feel as if you are in the ship. It's more on reading & explaining about the building, the processes, the backgrounds of the people on the ship, how it sank, what's the aftermath effect after it sank & the consequences. Nthg like the Titanic we watched on TV; no Rose or Jack. No "you jump I jump". No romantic dramatic scenes. Just a real story about Titanic :-)

I love museums very much and its my dream to travel around the world and visit the museums so I can learn more about their histories and culture. I regretted very much that I dint managed to visit the museum when I was in Dubai :(

Partly due to the hot weather and we are running out of time.

Sat outside the "Lotus" Museum and hang out, chatted and had fun :-) love to spend time with Wahable! Walked to Marina Sq for dinner and it's a waste of money! No chicken chop no fries nthg :( was told I will be having prawn aglio in exchange for fries but I had mushroom one instead, soggy spaghetti and tasteless. Spent $7.50 on it which comes with little baked beans and a piece of fried fish @ Marina Sq's food court. Argh sucks!

2011-11-02T10:52:00.001+08:00

This is my Outfit of The Day!

HollyHoque's Zip It Smart Blazer in Khaki - $33

(http://www.hollyhoque.com/collections/past-collection/products/zip-it-smart-blazer-khaki)

White Tank Top - $10

(Random online blogshop & not worth my money cause its a super translucent material)

I had to wear another white spag inside.

Watermelon Shorts With Gold Button - $10

(Awesome piece of shorts! Smooth material, thin but non sheer. @ AMK Hub)

Chunky Black Necklace - FOC

(A gift from Shi Hua's sis to me from BKK!)

Silver Earring - FOC

(A gift from Shi Hua's sis to me from BKK!)

Bling Ring - $23.20

(iShine)

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Love the color combination, together with my pale yellow bag and brown wedges :)

2011-11-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

Overheard this song in Cotton On twice while window shopping with Shi Hua;

& I got hooked on this song ever since I stumbled upon it!

Gotye (pronounced /ˈɡɔərtijeɪ/ gore-ti-yeah) -

Is into Indie Rocks + Experimental Rocks.

2011-10-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

Things To Do! - Needed To Be Done (Now not Later)

I need to get my Business Environment assignments done by 30th October! I am so lucky as the lecturer of this bridging module is Mr Julian Cheong! Although I dint manage to stay on in his class throughout, at least I know he is very lenient! :*) He is very humorous guy; in a very sexual way but he is good! A very good lecturer and we all enjoyed his lessons very much!

Things To Do! - Hoping To Be Done (Present not The Future)

I hope I can bring my grandparents out for a nice meal! I always only manage to give them some pocket money whenever I have extras and got them their favourite snacks / food whenever I dropped by to visit them but I feel its not enough. I remembered my uncle told me how happy my grandfather was when I got him the Yomeishu Tonic Wine when I got back from Dubai earlier this May, he was so delighted. My uncle said no grandchild of his ever gave him anything like that; I was flattered and feels happy. I am the eldest granddaughter to my grandparents and I feel that I should do something to make them happy. They are already so old and I am working now; this is the least I should do! Before the year ends; I promise! Together with my mum + bro + aunt + maid :*)
I hope I can save more extra money for whatever it can be. For my fam, my mum, myself and of cause for the future and emergencies uses. I have a quota to hit for myself before the year ends and I hope I can achieve it. & I believe I can manage myself not to spend so unnecessarily!
I hope I can be active enough to spend more time on books. I haven't been reading much cause I am taking up 2 jobs; hence not enough sleep! I am a heavy sleeper so I always sleep whenever I have the time! Now its very hard to! Needing to work full time from Mon-Fri and half day every alternate Sat + full day on a Sun is not joke! Seems ok but its very tiring! Ok So! To get more books to read + read & read!
To re-watch Gossip Girls! HEHE I'd stopped for awhile now and I wanna catch up! But I cant seem to be able to find the show on Fushion :(
I hope I can accompany my mum more and more! I dont wanna have any regrets so I need to do what I can now! Mummy I really love you, xoxo!
I hope I can have a short getaway with Shi Hua next year; somewhere near its fine with me :*) As long its away from this tiny little dot!
I hope I can get to meet my friends / have a short meet up as and when, when we are free. I love my friends and wanna to remain as close as possible!

2011-10-03T10:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO ME! :D

I am finally 20 years old!

Because I am surrounded by a lot of people who is much older than me,

they'd always tell me that how wonderful will it be if they 20 years old still!

I dont have much anticipation for my birthday this year, just a normal one perhaps.

Just an overview of how I spent my birthday this year.

Its really simple and sweet :*)

1. 28 Sept 2011, Wed: Dinner with Seaweed, Xuan Pohling & Ter @ ECP

2. 29 Sept 2011, Thurs: Dinner with Sau, Siling & Yucheng @ Causeway Point

3. 30 Sept 2011, Fri: USS with dear dear

4. 01 Oct 2011, Sat: Dinner with Yuyun, Xinrong, Fangzhen & dear dear @ Causeway Point

5. 02 Oct 2011, Sun: Wedding lunch of dear dear's army friend

6. 03 Oct 2011, Mon: Birthday lunch treat with bosses & colleagues

*****

20th Birthday Celebration Part I:

- 28 September 2011, Thursday -

Place: East Coast Park

Who Attended: Seaweed, Baoling, Xuan & Terrance.

Above: Thanks to my sisters for the awesome and simple oh jiao birthday cake & surprise!

Thanks to Seaweed & her sweet bf; Ter & Pohling and Xuan!

Above: Had this awesome UFO steamboat which doesnt require oil / margarine!

Recommended by seaweed!

Its just near MacDonald, very easy to locate! It only cost $19.90 w/GST!

With free flow of drinks & food of cause! At the end after you have finished your meal, you can use the ice cream coupon which entitles you to have 1 potong ice cream each!

So old school; yums!

Above: Thanks seaweed for leading the way hehe! :D

Above: I kinda force them to pose the oh jiao's signature pose! :D

Above: Can see I am really happy hehe!

& they are very tired but still glad they joined in the fun with me!

Above: Inside joke! Mac's drink and paper bag!

Above: The kind of reaction we will have whenever we receive seaweed's (birthday) card!

Above: They wanna surprise me from behind and wanna distract me from in front!

But in the end I just feel like turning back to take a look!

Ter & Seaweed was so shocked!

Seaweed's expression; priceless.

Above: NaRaYa pouch from Xuan! :*)

Above: The cute couple!

*****

Thanks girls for the simple and pleasant surprise!

I shall keep things simple this year, no fanciful dedications but just something simple!

I LOVE YOU GIRLS! ^^,

Although it will be awesome if Shi Hua is part of the surprise but,

we both spent another simple and fun day at USS just ourselves!

*****

Birthday Celebration Part II:

- 01 October 2011, Saturday -

Place: Causeway Point
Who Attended: Fangzhen, Yuyun, Xinrong & Shihua

Say hello to another secondary school clique of mine!

We are kinda close way back in secondary school :*)

Above: Yuyun, Me & Xinrong!

Know yy since sec 1 thru a friend and xr since primary 3.

Above: Fangzhen, Yuyun, me & Xinrong! :)

Been quite close since secondary school!

Above: Hi there ah wah!

You are in such a matching color with my clutch and jackpot stitch! :D

We had some time to kill after dinner so we went to the arcade for some games and come cam whoring session in a neoprint machine hehe.

Above: The birthday board they made for me!

With a super ugly photo of me when I was in sec 2 I guess?

Omg that was super hideous!

Above: The amount of sweets we caught! Actually there's a lot more!

Just that we shared and ate a lot hiakhiak!

Above: They got me a mini cake and a kinda like a surprise.

While they were getting some breads at breadtalk and while I was withdrawing money,

they got me this :*)

Above: Yay we went to Dian Xiao Er for dinner!

Above: We had the family set meal for 5 pax!

*****

Birthday Celebration Part III:

- 03 October 2011, Monday -

Place: Ivins @ Upper Thomson Road

Who Attended: Vincent (boss), Joanne (lady boss), Randy & Mandy (colleagues)

Above: Thanks to my Vincent & Joanne who gave me birthday lunch treat!

The food is awesome! Will go back for more for sure!
Hopefully with my family! :D

It was simple but I definitely enjoyed it!

2011-10-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

Stumble upon my cousin's blog awhile ago and I can relate to what she says. The only difference is that the relationship between my paternal relatives aint close at all. When she says she are not close with my grandparents, I feel that I am far more worst.

I literally feels that we are like strangers although we are family.

We only met once a year in the past when my grandfather is still around which is the Chinese New Year and so other than that we seldom contact each other.

Its only when my grandfather passed away, we have to meet for the rituals and funeral & some other things that matters; if not we are just living our own life.

I still remembered vividly that when I was a child, when my grandparents are still living at their 2nd story old flat, I hate going to their house for gatherings.

I'd always asked my parents and brother to walk ahead of me cause I do not know how to address my relatives as we seldom meet, thus that awkwardness and stiffness.

Another reason is due to my cousins, they are always talking among themselves, laughing and playing games together while my brother and I would always stay in the living room watching tv together with my mum while my father sleeps.

My relatives would love to ask my mum and me about my results and I really hate it.

I have another cousin who is 1 year younger than me in terms of lunar calender and her brother is the same age as my brother. I hate it when they compare us together. I know my brother and I aint as smart as they do, we are not as adorable and I know my relatives dont dote us as much as they dote my cousin and her brother.

I can feel it.

Thats why when I got my first scholarship in primary school, my mum is so proud of me and wanna share the joy with my grandparents and my relatives. Although they feels happy too but I can feel that if my cousin was the one awarded the scholarship, they would be more happy.

This is why I always distance myself away from them.

I feel that there's nothing to talk about. Literally nothing at all.

I always feel so unfair, why aint we all treated the same way? We are all having the same surname but why? I'd always wonder. My brother and I are always the one who is being left out in many things, most of the times my parents too but I can understand but thats the past, no?

I feel so relax and carefree with my maternal relatives cause I dont need to hide my true self and I love my maternal grandparents so much and hold them so dearly. Maybe its because my maternal grandma brought me up when I was just a toddler.

Thats is why I wanna work hard and give my family a better life.

I know my brother and I can never be good in terms of education but if I were to work hard I believe I can give my parents the same comfort if I were to study too. I dont wanna my parents to be looked down at just because of the past mistakes my father made.

I dont hate my paternal relatives, I really dont.

Just that we are very distanced and we dont understand each other at all.

I tried to convinced myself and have a positive mindset but I realised I cannot.

I'd always have a feeling that I have to work hard and achieve something good so that we can be recognized.

I am sorry if anyone in my paternal side had read this.

This is truly how I felt, its not affiliated to my father, my mum and brother.

I tried my best to be close to your and I really really wanted to but I gave up halfway cause to me;

I still had that feeling when I was young, it never gone away..

The awkwardness and stiffness.

I am never likable and I take it to heart seriously;

because I care, I really do.

2011-10-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

I can't possibly list out every single thing that Shi Hua has done for me,

I know it and I truly appreciate it so much.

No words can simply express my gratitude towards him so what I can do is just to treat him even better, love him even more and do what I can for this relationship of ours.

He really play a huge and important role in my life,

having the equal percentage and weightage as my own family and my best friends.

Deardear, I love you, I really do.

I will be better, we will be better, things will be better! :*)

2011-09-26T11:14:00.000+08:00

My newly made spectacles :)

- Credits to Google-

Alright the side isnt supposed to be like how the above spects should be;

it should be thinner and made of steel.

I love this design a lot not because of its brand but of its light greenish tortoise frame.

I always wanted to own a plastic frame spectacles and a tortoise frame for my spectacles but always afraid I am not able to pull it off because of my small face, & of cause unable to find a suitable one which I love as well! However I think I feel at ease after trying out for umpteen times & I guess I fell in love after trying it out for the first few times! :)

Shi Hua and I decided to make our spects after our 2nd trip there,

partly because of the price and he is unable to find a design he likes & of cause a suitable one.

But yay! Everything is settled now and now we are awaiting for our new spects! :D

Kinda sad as my degree for my right eye has increased again to about 350,

but my astig for my left eye remained as it is which I felt kinda relieve of.

While Shi Hua has his degree for both his eye reduced but increases in his short sight.

Another piece of good news is that the kind man who served us decided to gave me 2 pairs of free brown contacts for me to try on! I had never out on color contacts before as there's no lens for astig, thus he kindly gave me 2 pairs with higher degree for my left eye and normal degree fpr my right one. & I shall put it on on Wednesday when Imma gonna celebrate my advanced birthday with my dear girlfriends! While he gave Shi Hua a pair of greyish brown one to try on hehehe!

How exciting! Simply cant wait! :)

*****

All thanks to Shi Hua, I just cannot thank him enough.

For a lot of things, just too much to mention.

If you ever read this dear dear, I wanna say thank you :)

I know I am not capable to do much now but I will be working and striving hard alright?

To do the best I can although I am very lazy! I will work hard and will succeed someday!

2011-09-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

Above: Shi Hua & Me ♥

Thanks for being there for me no matter what happens;

I love everything we have done together and hoping things will even better in the future! :)

We rarely quarrel and never had heated arguments before, only some silly disagreements;

I am not sure should I feel happy that we rarely quarrel cause it seems that we are able to compromise and understand each other well,

or should I feel worried as other people always say "quarrels will pull 2 parties closer cause it makes them understand each other better".

In either way, I feel very comfortable this way and how things are now.

He's there to help when things go wrong, he's there to support when I broke down.

Thank you!

Everything you do/we do means a lot to me!

I hope we can stay this for as long as possible and remain happy/carefree! :)

2011-09-22T15:40:00.000+08:00

I wish I can know how are you doing. I wish I can how how is your life without me participating in it. I wish I can know how are you coping with things in your life without me. I wish I can know things and updates about you but I know its almost impossible.

We are just bypassers who are leading his and her own life without interfering each others.

One by one, my friends other than me kept bumping into you. I am not hoping I can bump into you someday cause I know we both will feel hurt once again and the atmosphere will be awkward. We may smile at each other like strangers, like friends or even good friends. Any emotion that we may portray out is unpredictable. I guess we are still not as stable yet; in terms of our feelings- especially you I guess; although almost 5 months have past by and everything should have subsised. I think you are still as hurt, feel as betrayed. Or you are leading brand new good life now! Who knows! It is a good news after all.

I am not sure if we still can be friends in the future but I really hope to apologize to you once again (if you are reading this or not its fine). I hope you are leading a much better life, hoping you can bring your business to a greater height and buy a condo for your mum like you always told me. I believe you are able to find another girl whom you love her as much as she loves you too.

Staying in a relationship whereby she is your best friend, your soul mate and lover. This is something you and I have created before and now I found mine so I hope you too can find someone like this too, which I believe you can. I don't wanna be that kind of person who deprived my ex boyfriend of finding his happiness and grieve over it. Because you are so good, I sincerely wishes you well.

Being with you is one of my most happiest time ever and nothing can replace all the wonderful good memories we once had. We can reminisces but we can't bring the past back. We can only move on and lead a better life. Our break up caused a lot of impact on me (of cause on you too) and its not positive at all. On the other hand, you taught me a whole of life lessons which most are not even taught by my parents. You changed me into someone so much better. You have so many good points that I cannot possibly say all out. I know it all deep within me.

I was once envied by all my friends saying I have such a awesome boyfriend which I feel so proud of as well. Its the past now. I have someone as good now with me too. I guess you would have guess it right too. The guy I told you over the phone 5 months back- yes we are together now. Don't worry if you are (or not) we are very happy and comfortable together. I felt at ease whenever I am with him, being very happy, lame, joke, everything; just like how I am too when we are together. I not trying to make you hurt but wanna let you know as a friend. I feel as good with him just like how we used to be.

He is my best friend, my soul mate and lover too.

All these are some of things I wanna say to you but I will never be able to brave myself and say it out right on your face. Thus I type them out. Whatever you are going, I wish you all the best.

2011-09-20T09:49:00.000+08:00

I always like and enjoy the idea of having the attention of my friends on me. No matter what I do and say. It means a lot to me. It means they acknowledge me. Time has past and things have changed. I longer have the privilege to enjoy all these despite I have a number of good friends on hand. A couple of them unfollowed me on Twitter, well I felt something but aint sad cause we are not very close but at the very least we are classmates right? I know I have to have that 'adult mentality' - able to let go suavely and not thinking about it too much. However sometimes I really can't help it. I cant always pretend I am a adult when the fact it I am only 19 (yes am celebrating my 20th birthday soon) I suppose being a 19/20 year old isnt very old ya?

I dont know how does all these linked to my horoscope or personality, but maybe I am not likable enough? Haha. Well I dont care if the people I dont like bad mouthed me behind my back or even tries to be funny in front of me. Being a coward that it. Mention my name if you really dislike me. Well back to the point, I felt hurt when people I care did this to me; not intentionally but I just felt that way.

I want people to care for me; the care that comes within their heart willingly, not because I wanted them to be this way.

P/S: I felt so emotional and even sad for a good friend of mine whenever I thought of the long relationship of him and his previous girlfriend has come to an end for good. Its true we cant prevent things from happening and moreover its their personal life. We outsiders have no rights to comment much, especially on their decisions. If the person we love are leading a happier life, we will of cause wish them well, but on a selfish thought; why isnt the person sharing the happiness with our love one(s): us?

Just some thoughts.

2011-09-19T11:12:00.000+08:00

I am back on blogger! Am too busy with work and family issues which causes me to lose track of a lot of things. I am enjoying my work very much! I have really good bosses around and I felt so blessed :-) I really cant ask for more. I hope I am motivated to blog more about my life cause I want to have something for me to read when I grow old. It may not be anything interesting but at least its my life!

Actually I felt really happy when a handful of my friends are still reading my blog! Thank you! <3

Just a short update; September is basically a very busy month! Have been working non stop including weekends since the first Sunday of the month /: Super drained and worn out and have been missing out a lot of things, but looking at a more positive side, it may be good as well! :-) I hope these bad days will be over soon!

Something to look forward! My birthday and the end of year! :D

2011-08-18T15:12:00.000+08:00

I believe many girls will/have experience the same feeling before:

During the honeymoon relationship, everything is just so sweet and simple. Everything revolves only between both of you. When things began to move on to a more stable stage, your partner still regards you as his only love but his life ~~may~~ not revolve only around you. I am selfish but I dont like my partner to remain in uber close contact with his old flame. You still can contact each other as normal friends but what are you trying to imply and what is your old flame trying to say when she is doing all these things? LIke getting close to you AGAIN?

I find it extremely annoying and crappy when my partner's old flame come 'flocking' around him and say "Oh I am so sorry that I'd hurt you in the past, can you please forgive me and we still can be good friends etc?"

To me its bullshit and utterly rubbish. When some things are broken, it means BROKEN. No matter how regretful you may feel, it will not change the fact. Another thing that will make me burn and enrage is what the hell are you trying to do or hint when YOU can talk to your old flame as and well you are free but you are not talking to me when you are free??? Am I your girlfriend or is she your girlfriend? Stop trying to give her false hopes seriously.

PLEASE CLEARLY KNOW WHERE YOU BOTH SHOULD BE STANDING.

There's a restriction and there's A line ok.

Enraged. #justsaying

2011-08-16T14:54:00.000+08:00

Hi all! I am supposedly to be working now but since I am alone in the office now, I am slacking awhile now (yes! I'm so bored!) Joanne a.k.a SH's sis a.k.a my boss went for her ERA leadership training, Vincent a.k.a SH's brother-in-law a.k.a my boss went to job site while my colleague Randy went for business/trying to clinch deals out there.

I doubt I have mention anything about my new job here, yet. This job has been pretty amazing, I love it, so far so good! Although its just a simple admin associate job, I enjoy it very much. I love being organized and helping others and do what I can do best. My 2 bosses have been pretty graceful and awesome to me, the relationship between us is so indescribable. Sometimes people would say that this relationship we are having is purely simple, but to me its not just that. How should I put it? Initially I was hesitating whether should I accept this admin job offer from Joanne; which is SH's sis. I am afraid there will be misunderstandings during work and it may affect our relationship after work; which is personal life. However, after working here for exactly 2 months now (16th is the day I officially start working), I have learnt a lot and things are much easier for me.

Sh and I had our usual phone chat last night and he keep telling me that if I want to earn more money, getting hook on a sales job will be the choice. Like selling cars, being a insurance agent, property agent. I then asked him why haven't he thought of hooking them up as his job, he told me he dont like it. So I asked him back; what makes you think I will like it then? He answered me again, since I have experience in retail sales, sales like these shouldn't be much of a problems.

Things are really so different between retail sales and sales line. To me, retail sales (unless you are the business owner, that will be another different story) and sales line is not just a thin line difference. I am not a very confident person, thus I don't find myself awesome or even good looking when it concerns about my outlooks. I lack of patience. I can write decently but I cant conduct a proper conversation well. Just imagine, people who approaches insurance agents eg; normally are those with a proper job with good pay, thus this are able to lead you to this: a good job with good pay means good education and it will than lead you to this: high expectations. Yes, I cant even fulfill what I need to do for myself and on what grounds am I able to provide good services for these people?

I dont have a good education, I cant find a decent normal job others as compared ti my friends. I can only get another alternative; earning the basics first then save enough for my Uni which I initially thought of to enroll myself in next year, but with so many problems occurring right now, it will never come true. Therefore I am thinking to get another part time over the weekend to earn more income.

My friends or rather those who know well knows how I enjoy sleeping, to scarify my sleep over the weekend is just horrifying! But I really dont other choice. I hope can make it through. I also hope This time things will work out, seriously hope.

Back to the topic of me in my new job; well haha not that new anymore but its okay! I count myself fortunate to have such great employers. I am often being treated meals during lunch time and sometimes I feel so bad so I offer to pay for drinks but always got declined! They are really nice. Sometimes when I stay over at SH's house, next morning they will come and fetch me and go work together. So I am able to sleep for another half an hour more thanks to them! Actually is Sh always urged me to SMS and ask them if not he will ask. But I felt really bad but feel good cause they are really nice people :-)

I feel really blessed whenever I am with SH and his family, I hope everything will go on smooth and good. For as long as possible. & glad SH accepts me for who I am :*) I made a mistake then and though I am still mourning over it and still feel very affected, I always remind myself this time round I shall make any mistakes again. Although SH dont appears to be very affections, & we tends to behave more like friends, I know things are okay :-) I dont know how things will turn out in the future cause I tend to have negative thoughts as and when which I keep to myself which a couple of times led us to have misunderstanding and tiffs. I don know does he understand and know that I am a girl who really really need assurance and security but I am trying my best to be as good as I can. I am always trying to work on my character to be better since I have nothing more to flaunt. HAHAH! :-)

As for my friends... Sigh... Drifting so far so far soooo far... I just dont know what to say. I used to have many friends around me and I know the number of friends dont matter but I just dont feel good, seriously. I dont know who to call as good friends or normal friends or strangers anymore.

Seriously fuck.

2011-08-08T13:23:00.000+08:00

I hope can blog as frequent as possible and fully utilize the desktop computer SH got for me! I love my current blogskin right now :-) There's many things on hands that I wish to do have to put on hold now. Till a later date.. As much as I hate it, I have no choice at all. All I want to do now is to earn more money, solve all the problems I have on hands now and be carefree once again!

Due to unpredictable problems that occurred, the launch of my blogshop have to delay. I really hate things are going this way but they are really getting way out of hands. I am trying my best to solve the problems now as they are all interlinked.

How I wish I have more time and ways to earn money, really.

2011-07-18T14:12:00.000+08:00

I have been sooo busy these days.

Or am I actually not? I am just trying to deceive myself?
In either way, I am getting sick and tired of knowing cynical remarks made by others about me these days. Be it my friend(s), family or whosoever. I am really tired.. Really very tired.
I am really trying my best to fix the things that is out of hand, trying my best to control the mess that other people created, trying my best to remain as positive as I can. Its really not easy these days. Its hard to maintain myself. I can only find comfort within Shi Hua and my mum. I cant find peace and joy in others; its not not anymore, but it seems very hard. Thats why I find myself clinging on them a bit too longer and become a bit too whiny as well. Hate to be like this but I need to find comfort, assurance, sercuity and love.

There's a saying that goes: "Problems that money can slove, aint considered as problems at all."
Well, Its not entirely true. All the problems I am facing are revolved all around money. Other than holding a full time job now, I really dont know how can I earn more money. The money I am earning and saving are all now to be used on my family and household now. I need more money for my University school fees and so much more. I think the Uni fees are enough to drag me for a long long long time.

Till now I still can make it, still able to make it through. I still can tolerate what awful comments other people made on me. However I really hope ll these bad stuff will subside. I really dont need it. Whatever I am doing, it may not please you and I am really not trying to fight with anyone. Its really a struggle for me now, all I hope is just to lead a peaceful life. I am trying to lead a low profile now, I believe there are eyes to see.

All my time is all invested on work, Shi Hua and family.

Its really hard not to think of the problems, insomnia is coming back. & it really sucks, really sucks so sooo much :-(

2011-06-26T20:40:00.001+08:00

I remembered I asked Shi Hua before that why dint he always try to make phone calls to his friends and try to catch up over the phone? I still do that I told him. Than he replied that because of his (their) age, most are already married with kids, busy with work and whatsnot therefore they cant really fork out the time to chat with their friends over the phone for hours. The minimal they can is only a mere few mintues. I than told him that my friends and I will never turn out like this, than he said because we are still young, most are still studying thats why. Wait till we all reaches their age, things will deifnately be very different.

I have to agree with him right now.

My friends are all in poly right now, they have their own commitments like new friends, ccas, overseas trips, relationships, work and so much more. Therefore the time I managed to see or even catch up with them is literally very little. Till now, I only managed to meet up more often with my very close friends like Angie, Fangzhen thats all! Than it will be Seaweed. The more recent ones I met up with will be Sau. Friends like Pohling, Yuyun and Xinrong are quite busy with school activities, especially Pohling! While Xinrong is more like me; induling in work life & Yuyun is more with her other friends.

However I am still gald that Fangzhen, Yuyun, Xinrong and I still remain very close and always try to arrange a meet up or gathering at least once a month. I really appreciate this group of friends very very very much :*) They rock my life for the past 8 years. Regardless how little time we have for each other, whenever we meet up we still have tons of things to talk about, especially Fz, he helped me alot in my family matters and personal ones too. He is always there no matter what, well such a good buddy he is! Never once feel any regrets knowing them!

So back to the topic, so my friends are all very busy with their own things. I dont like the fact that a few friends or people I know tend to drfit themselves away whenever they met new people or friends. I dont like that idea, in fact I hate it. So what you made new friends, that doesnt mean you can just 'abandon' your 'old' friends. In fact you should try to meet up with your other friends cause you spend more time with the rest. Am I not right? Yeah some people I know are that superficial, they always feel new people are always better. Their character will never change.

Feel so annoyed with some friends of mine but why should I be so angry when they dont care? Indulging into the phrase of adulthood, haha, care less.

#justsaying

2011-06-26T18:40:00.000+08:00

If you see the world when you are happy,
than the world will appear to be beautiful.

Its been long since I last update my blog! Practically no time at all! Just like I'd mentioned in my twitter before; my life now is just to indulge in the hectic working life! I love my new job very much and I promised myself I will do my best for it! I don't wanna let anyone down and cause complications. I work hard not just because of myself but for my family too! I feel extremely happy cause I really enjoy my current job very much! Time not just lifes super fast and my boss and lady boss are super nice people! We even went 'shopping' during our working hours! Muahahahaha! Put that aside, its really true that when you start to enjoy whatever you are doing, not just time will past by very quickly, you yourself will feel very contented and satisfactory too :*) Thats very true! Good environment, good bosses, better pay than previous job, enjoyment and delightfulness that I got from my job? Priceless :) Yeah I will work hard for sure!

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Cookies baking time!

With Angie Bbbbbbbbbbbb! :*)

Above: Went to Sheng Siong at Teck Whye and NTUC to get our ingredient!

We made double chocolate, chocolate and chocolate & almond nuts cookies!

Above: Our first attempt in baking cookies! :D

Above: Borrowed the mixer from my aunt! She used it for over 30 years already!

Above: Yumms yumms smell sooo good! ^^

Above: Yay! It tastes like brownie than cookie. I dont know why too!

But anw its a success! :D

Above: Shi Hua's sis's doggie!

OMG I ADORE HER A LOT! Cause she is supeeeer cute & happy!

Her name is MOMO but I always call her more more and they have another dog,

by the name of money! So MORE MORE MONEY! :D

Miss her so much! :(

Above: Went to ikea and got some boxes for my room!
For those who know me well, they knw that I ALWAYS pack my room!

& I cannot stand my room being in a mess!

So me being me, went to get a few boxes and reorganized all my stuff and feel so happy!

Above: After I packed my stuff into these boxes!

Need to get a few more though!

2011-06-08T11:15:00.001+08:00

My new hairstyle! :-)

*****

Went for a haircut at Far East Plaza, Clover yesterday with Shi Hua!

Initially wanted to look for the hairstylist who cut my hair the previous time but he quit!

I was quite amazed cause before my previous hairstylist,

there's another female one who cutmy hair, but she also quit the following time I went to Clover!

So I was like: Hmmmm, am I cursed? Every hairstylist seems to quit after they cut my hair!

So I told my current hairstylist, she was like, hope the next time you come, I am still around!

-__________________-

The chances of us going back is very small, cause Shi Hua says that something must be wrong with the salon thats why the hairstylist quit one after another, so its time for us to relocate another salon soon!

*****

I am in love with my new hair now! I did try to cut my hair short before when I was in Sec 1 and that's the most horrendous experience I ever had in my entire life! So I told myself NO MORE short hair! Plus I wasn't very trendy and dressing seems to be very yucky so that adds to the disgusting point.

Initially I wasn't keen to cut my hair till this short but my hairstylist was asking to try it out, bob hair! I only wanted to reborn my fringe and trimmed my split ends thats all! But I wanted to try out something new and I always wanted to try short hair! So I went along with her idea! Plus Shi Hua also encourages me to try short hair too! Makes me looks more fresh and "awake-ish!".

The end result was very satisfying! From the corner of my eye, sitting beside me, Shi Hua was like eyeing my short hair and seems to agree with my new hairstyle! But he din't know I wanted to trimmed till THIS short! He wondered why din't I cut my hair till a length like his sis/mum/my mum! But their's are very short!!! So I dont want to!

We took train home and he asked why din't I tweet/Facebook my new hairstyle? I said I wanted to! I already took a picture RIGHT after our haircut in the toilet! No time to tweet only! :B

He was like: "I KNEW IT!!!!!"

I was like: -__________- HEHE :P

So I told him I cant wait for iPhone's new IOS 5 to be out! Right after I took my pic I can STRAIGHT away tweet without wasting anytime! HEE :D

Went back home and I tweet/Facebook while waiting for bus! Not bad I received good feedbacks and compliments! I love my new hair! :D Some was shocked that I trimmed till this short! Nevertheless its well received! Other than my father! Who come in when I was sleeping with my mum and I thought it was a dream -____- ; was sooo shocked upon seeing my new short hair, he said long hair suits me more! So I told my mum, never mind! He will get used to it! & my grandma will love my new hair as well! She never fails to ask me to cut my hair short whenever she sees me omg! Now she will love me more :-)

2011-06-06T14:06:00.000+08:00

So many things need to be done as soon as possible! I really need to get back on track and laze around no more! I know I always procrastinate and never really do what I say. I always have plans but I don't know how to evacuate them. I always thought I can be independent in some aspects but somehow at some point of time I know I just couldn't. Oh this feeling sucks! Anyway! These are some of the few things I have been doing or need to get them done!

*****

Setting up a blogshop!

Yay! I have been thinking about this for the longest time! (Since 3 years ago! Yes!) I want to make it a long term and good one! I have seen far too many awesome and good online stores on www! That's one of the reason I am worried mine wouldn't make it far. I am also worried that I cant commit myself with those tedious work which requires me to do everything on my own!

Very much explains on the needing to be independent part. Hmph. Honestly, I have serious doubts in my own creativity skills. I wouldnt hope my online store to make it as big as some awesome ones like Love, Bonito, I don't have big and ambitious dreams, definitely not now. I only hope for something small to make the life of my family and mine to be more smooth and not to worry much over monetary issues! Thats all I ask for! For now.

Actually this online store thing is supposedly a partnership between my ex colleague and I. However if things ever fall off between the both of us, I will still continue do this on my own and I believe I can make it through as well! Of cause I really need strong support from my friends! Words of mouth are very important. Basically she will provide the online store with the apparels, accessories and she already got all instocks ready! How awesome! & me will be focusing more on admin side like taking care of email and stuff. More tedious but profit might be higher! Haven't really go into details yet though but after a rough discussion, things should this way I think.

I already got a very sweet girl to help design my website! She's really a very nice and efficient girl! She should be helping me with the design of logo as well!

Shall not go into so much details, I hope things can be up by end of this month, if not the next which will be July! We all are so busy with our work and personal stuff so its really hard to meet up! I dont wish to fork out too much capital for this online store first cause we really don't know how far this will lead us to. Will it succeed or fail? Its really something very unpredictable. I don't have much confident as well.

However, I will prioritize and know how to manage my time! I am going to take up Advanced Diploma part time (related to Mass Communications) next year, while holding a full time job and managing my online store. Than the following year, 2013 I shall proceed to SIM and take up Degree part time (Marketing/biz). I know all these sounds confusing doesnt seem very practical but I am very determined to get my Degree cert, save a certain decent amount and to maintain my online store. As for my full time job, I will leave it for thoughts after next year?

Right now, my focus will be my online store, advanced diploma for year 2012 & degree for year 2013. Even time doesnt allow, I really hope to clear my studies by year 2015, which means I am 24? Yeah, it shall be my maximum age for me to obtain my degree. I am very determined, I said it before, by hook or by crook, I will make it happen within my own means.

I want to be someone my parents are proud of :*) Thats all that matters.

2011-05-30T12:26:00.000+08:00

[Post edited on 31 May 2011]

You may not agree to what I say, I am cool. You may even wanna hate me more after reading, I am fine. Its either guilty conscience strikes on you, or you think I am simply loathsome or being a bitch. Never mind about either way. In life, we all are being a bitch somewhere or somehow, the only difference is how bitchy you want yourself to be, how different you wanna present yourself to the public. The more angelic or more devilish.

No?

Everyone have thoughts they wanna convey. Everyone wants to have a say.

*****

I don't know how many friends of mine still bother to come to my page and read whatever I have to write here. Maybe because I have stopped writing for awhile then so they thought I am not updating this much. I may sound contradicting but everything is just written down the moment they come into my mind.

K never mind. There are some thoughts within me that's overflowing inside my head and I think I need to let them out. I don't wish to make myself more miserable as time goes by. I am not sure how many will stumble upon my page and read this post and even they do, how will they feel. I really don't know. Sometimes its best that I don't know. So I wouldn't think so much and cause myself to have unnecessary problems.

Ever since my broke up with Aloy, I can sense that the distance between my close friends and I are drifting everyday. I think I am not being paranoid. I can feel it. The feeling is so overwhelming. I really hope that its not true. Its really very hurtful and heart-aching. The feeling is so bad that I sometimes lie on bed crying at night. I don't wanna lose any of my friends. I can say that I really treasure them a lot. Maybe thru my actions its not shown that way. But I really, really do. I can choose to not to care. But I did. I can choose to let my friends go. But I din't. To me, they are a bunch of awesome people, they really are.

I am not being a sadist. I feel happy when my friends are happy; supposedly. But I dont know why these days, these weeks, I felt very unhappy and fearful. Whenever I read upon my friends' Facebook status updates, twitter updates, I just feel like crying. Its true, I really feel happy for them whenever joyful happenings befall on them. I think the reason why I feel sad is because, I feel I am no longer part of them. The thought of us drifting so drastically fast and far always makes my tears fall; not always but sometimes. Again, I never fail to rewind back to the times whenever we had our fair share of good times together. For this I would always smile. However when the thought that we are no longer close and good, my hopes will just come crashing down on me. It just hits me that badly.

I am being childish at times. I wanna to get their attention so I always posted some things up on twitter, but practically almost all ignores me. Ha ha ha. Am I really that detestable? Really am I? I was hoping someone will just come up to say some words of encouragement to me when I am down or sad, feels happy for me when I am really happy. But other than people like FZ, PL & ST, non do... Things are all no longer the same. Everything has changed.

I feel so lonely, feel so scared. All the time, I was just wondering, has my parting with Aloy really caused such an huge impact on my friends? I know all my friends know and feel that Aloy is a awesome guy, I know it too. I never deny that fact. By far, he is really the best bf I ever had. I cant ask for more. But when I choose to leave him, why din't most of you stood by me? Why did most of your doubted me? Why can't I have my own happiness? Why must I be the one who got banished from heaven to hell so instantly? Why do I have to lose my friends? Why must I be the one having called nasty names? Why must I be the one suffers so much? Why didnt I have my fair share of close and supportive friends when I have my bad times? WHY?!

I cant say that I am a superb friend who is there ALWAYS. But I always make sure that when things happened, I tried my best to be there for them. I am not trying to claim any credits but its true. I did what I can to make the people I love happy and feel good. I got small gifts suitable for them as and when, I listened to their unhappiness till wee hours, I stood by them when majority doesn't seem approve what they want and need to do. In return most of them trusted me and always look for me when problems occurred. I am grateful for that. However, now I am in their shoe right now, why cant I seem to be able to look for someone who can do all these for me in return?

I just want to know, I only have this question in mind: Why is this happening?

Any problems or things you wanna clarify, you can just come to me and ask. But why dint you? Most would rather listen to the rumors spread around by others instead of coming up to me and ask. This shouldn't be the way, isnt it? We all envy the strong friendship other people have. But the amount of love and care they gave out isnt something they ask for in return. They stood by each other no matter what happens. Thats why their friendship is so strong; in comparison to ours. I dont ask for much, I only ask for respect and trust from you, but I cant even get it. I am such a failure.

A few (another group) close friends told me to let them go. Cause they are not worth it. When I am having my bad times, how many actually stands by my side to cheer me up and giving me their support? Aint best friends suppose to be the ones that nags like parents, love like sisters, protects like brothers, never ending giving and not asking for returns? Sticking with each other no matter what happens. Yes, best friends ought to behave this way, no? I just thought all these isnt what I want too, all these should just come naturally..

I believe in karma. I think this is my retribution for treating my own best friend badly then.

I know some friends of mine think that I have changed. Changed into someone they longer know. Someone doing things in sly, not being transparent enough. Keeping everything to myself. But I dint. I am still the same old Alicia everyone knows.

Just the other day, I was thinking since I dint see YC and SL in ages, so might as well pop by to Tw mac and wanna have a chat. But when I reached I dint say much. The awkwardness was so weird. I dint know what to say, both of them have their inside jokes which I dont understand. I talked to SL but she ignored me idk why. I feel lousy so I dont wanna continue to stay, so I went home. Dragging my feet home.

Nobody likes to be neglected. So I'd always try my best not to neglect my friends. However after this incident, I feel so lonely. I cant seem to be able to find any other word to substitute lonely. In simple form, I feel "lonely, sad, dejected, unhappy, heartache".

I think all these is just part of growing up. Learning the tough way to grow up. Learning to be independent. However deep inside me, I know I dont wanna to. I am clingy. I am dependable to my friends emotionally. I am someone who need close friends with me, who trust me, who support me no matter what happens. I am someone who always feel insecure so thats why I need friends to make me feel I am not. I dont need many, just a few very close ones to be there. Yes a number of them are always there; PL, A, ST, FZ etc. They are ALWAYS here for me. But of cause for this post, I meant another few close friends of mine.

Honestly; when I got to know how my friends said that I have changed, how different I am, nasty names being called behind me, that feeling is really indescribable. That feeling is so bad that I practically feel nthg at all. By nthg I mean; so sad that I feet nthg. I wanna cry but there's no tears. I wanna run but I cant seem to move. I am just stuck..

Imagine, people whom you called best friends, assuming the worst of you without asking you what happen. How would you feel? Seriously, I am not making a mountain out of a molehill. Everyone is bound to face this problem, somehow, someday, somewhere in their life. Maybe I am someone who is more dependable on relationships; kinship, friendship, relationship etc thats why I am always so emotional whenever I faced these problems.

I am not trying to make myself the victim cause whatever I have written are all based on facts. I have proof to every single thing I have written here. I just feel unjustified. Really, I feel I really am. But thats towards my friends only. For the (past) relationship of Aloy and me, I admit I am in the wrong. Making the wrong move which cause hurt to both parties. I should have find a way to resolve all differences between us but I dint. I just let problems occur and it just becomes bigger and bigger as time goes by.

I am sincerely sorry. Aloy, If you ever get to read this post, I owe you a lot, so much that I think I cant repay you back no matter what I do. I still hope we still can be friends, although its really hard by judging from the current situation..

Last question: Honestly, do you feel happy when I am entirely out of your life? If yes please let me know. I will do so. I will not be clingy and disrupt your happy and peaceful life, if you were to detest me this much. Fair and square, one stone killing two birds cause when I am out of your life, I wouldnt feel unhappy cause I will not keep thinking that respect and trust from my friends isnt there for me, & you wouldnt need to bother and care so much.

I know its all too late to say anything cause it doesnt help to salvage anything. I think for anything that matters, it will be my friendship between my friends and Aloy. I dont know should I say that I owe an explanation to anyone although most say I am not obligated to. But since I am being accused, and a few may wanna know how I feel and what's going on, this post is for you. It may be redundant and stupid for you, but it isnt for me, and to some at least; I am sure.

I just hope that whoever out there, wanna make an assumption or trying to accuse anyone, seriously, think of the consequences. You may not fear anything or anyone, but don't you feel guilty? No guilty conscience at all? Maybe you dont treat that person as your friend, but still, it makes you feel good? As simple as it is, just put yourself in that person's shoe, dont you feel hurt? Or somehow or rather, some pain is being inflicted on you for some other matters? I really dont know. There are billions and millions of different people all around. People whom you thought as your best friend, may not turn out to be. People whom you thought of the least, turns out to be the friend indeed.

Or maybe you really dont care. Cause you have tons of friends around, a awesome boyfriend, a loving family, people waiting to flock around you etc etc etc.

Yes I am sarcastic but isnt this life? Backstabbers are everywhere.

2011-05-26T13:40:00.000+08:00

Just finished my new blog layout, wow its really very tedious! Haven't been doing this for the longest time cause I am unable to use my com at home as its still with Shi Hua! Currently still undergoing some clearing of "bad toxic" from my cpu! Hello boy! I don't know will you be reading this but please return me my cpu asap ok! If not I will be bored to death! :B

Having so many things to be done almost at the same time can be really tiring, but still I enjoy doing them! I can make myself busy as well as being able to produce fruitful results! Hehe!

Actually I am undergoing a few changes in life now, not really major things but I really really really feel like telling some people but I don't know who to tell. Or rather how to tell.. This feeling really sucks :( I often tell my friends that no matter what happens, regardless of the time, place, or anything, they can look for me. Cause I always assure them that I will be there. However.. Alright anyway for the changes, might as well wait till everything is settled and ready to be done for, Than people around me will know what's going on :)

Main priority is still to earn and save more money money money!

All I can say is that my life isnt as great as before for sure. On the other hand, I don't have much friends like my friends do as they are currently all in poly. So the amount of friends they have is doubling, tripling up the number of my own friends. Eh, I myself also don't know what I wanna convey haha. But basically I am just leading a very mundane life now. I wanna meet my friends but most of them isnt free. To me, friends still play a very important part in my life..

Never mind! Shall just concentrate what I am doing right now! I hope I can produce good results!

I miss my friends, alot..

2011-05-23T14:55:00.000+08:00

Dubai Holiday Trip.

Overall this 5 days 4 nights in Dubai is really an eye opener for me!
Everything spells awesome even though the weather hits up till at least a 46 Degrees!

I had fun with Shi Hua and his colleague, Li Jun during these few days! :)

All thanks to them, especially to Shi Hua, I really had my fair share of fun there.

I'd never ever thought of going to some Arabic country which consists of mainly Indians!

Well after this trip I really have a different perspective of views for them now.

& during this trip, I had my many first times!

Like riding on a camel, visiting a desert, standing under the sun of 46 Degrees,

entering the world's largest indoor man-made aquarium, the world's largest shopping mall

& visits to some famous landmarks,

like the world's tallest building; Burj Khalifa & SO MUCH MORE!!!

Oh! Dubai is NOT a Indian country, its a Arabic country!
Their currency is dhs = Dirhams.
Their exchange rate with Sg is SG$1:DHS2.85
Its part of the United Arab Emirates.
The food they are having is called the Lebanese food.
The ruler of their country is called His Highness Sheikh.

I love Dubai!

Its almost like Singapore, or even more advanced!

The people there smells good and look good too!

Consist of ALOT of rich people hahahaha!

Hehehehehehheheh.

Just to share a few photos I've got from Jun first!

A few places that we went to are the landmarks of Dubai!

(P/S: Took over 1.3k worth of pictures for this trip!)

Above: The Burj Al Arab,

One famous landmark of Dubai.

Above: Souk Madinat Jumeirah Shopping Mall.

Above: Super friendly stuff at this candy store!

Above: Currency of Dubai!

Above: Taking a creek (small boat) to Burj Dubai.

The developing side of Dubai.

Above: Jun with the Guinness World Record's heaviest Gold ring!

Above: Me with the background of Dubai's Metro! (MRT)

Above: Jun, Me & Shi Hua inside a Metro!

Above: Us having supper at a restaurant near our hotel.

Above: A pararomic view of The Dubai Mall.

Largest shopping mall in the world.

Above: A pararomic view of the super clear beach near Hyatt Hotel.

Above: Me with the world's tallest building, Burj Khalifa.

Above: Jun and me in the car ready for the bune bashing in the desert!

Above: Us at the Alware Desert attempting the jumping shots!

Above: Waiting to try the sand skiing!

Above: My first virgin ride on a ultra mega cute camel!!!

Above: Me with the Lebanese food of theirs! :D

Its awesome and very yummy!

2011-05-09T16:07:00.000+08:00

Some of the things which I want to do when I have the money & time. Let's not think about if I can do all these within a short span of time, have the capability or not. I have these dreams since I was 17 years old. I don't think all these are unrealistic, but all of these involves huge sum of money which I have to really work hard enough to make them come true. They will come true, just that, not now, for sure. -Not in a orderly format.

1) Teeth whitening

2) Get a Degree cert

3) Get my driving license

4) Remove the lump on my ear

5) To save at least 12k every year

6) Get a apricot toy poodle

1) Able to bring my family/grandparents to travel around the world

2) To earn enough to get my own car so I can drive my parents/grandparents around

3) I want to be able to provide for myself and my family

4) To get more DIY materials so I can make handmade stuffs for my friends for occasions

5) With the money I have earned/saved, I will get the things I always wanted for the longest time but unable to do so just because I have no money

2011-04-12T14:01:00.001+08:00

I am not someone who is good in my studies, in fact I suck at it. I guess I dint really work hard and smart enough to make my typical education route possible: Primary school - Secondary school - Poly - University.

I regret a lot. Yes I know I have been saying this for the longest time and I am trying my very best to make amendments. I have help from all my very supportive friends. Be it verbally or thru actions, I have them all. I know very well that by saying wouldst help me much so I took actions against it. I dont wanna to wallow in self-pity. I wanna be successful as well, not really very successful but something small to at least make my parents feel proud of me. I know I always whine and cry over the silliest and slightest matters when it comes revolve around my studies. But after whining and crying and those much complaints I have for my friends, I still stand up with he help of my friends and try to walk again. Its really easy to give up and the thought of giving up is seriously on my mind always. As I grow older, I think there's some voice and positive strength within me that says "don't give up." Sounds really dramatic and crazy but its really a motivation for myself. No one is giving up hope on me, not my parents, not my friends. So why should I? I wanna give my parents a good life. It may not come true now but I believe I can. I know everything written here are just merely words. No actions. But hey, I am doing something right now. And I hope they will come true for me, as long I am given a chance.

Who doesn't know that (the freaking damn hell) cert in hell important in Singapore? It may be just be a cert to some but to me, its not.

I am someone who minds whatever people say, a lot. Really a lot. If you know me long enough and deep enough, this shouldn't be anything new to you. Everything I have said is really my deepest and utmost feelings. I rarely tell anyone these in details. I only say to a few. Cause I feel they will never understand how much I went thru. Cause they are successful in many aspects. Unlike me. Especially in the education sector. I also know not many know how to console their friends. They can be the best listening ears but not the best advisers. I dont blame them, so I always make sure I go to someone trustworthy enough for me rely on (friends) when problems come falling on me. & I also know they are always there regardless what happens. They will always try their best to help me out too.

1. Sec 1-3 express streams, dropped to sec 4 NA. Took N levels and just made it to Sec 5. Took O Levels and failed terribly.

2. Went to RP, NYP for appeal and apparently all failed. Went to ITE NITEC/HIGHER NITEC for appeals and went for interviews which I have confident that I will make it but eventually I dint. Don't ask me why. Up till today I dont know why too.

3. (2009 and I was 18 years old) Spend a year and retook my 2 O level subjects, Math and Combined Science (which I think its very wasted and stupid cause I only took 2 subjects).

4. (2010 and I was 19 years old) Started working while waiting for my results to release but everything went so wrong. I have strong faith and belief that I will do well but it wasn't the case. Went to MOE to appeal and of cause failed again. Was adviced by a friend to take up part time course from local poly. So I called and enquire but they don't accept students like me. Lost hope and went to work full time in retail.

5. (2010 and I was 19 years old) While working I realized that I dont just wanna work and I dont wanna be stuck in retail forever. So I worked full time and study part time Diploma in Mass Media. I pay for my own school fees. & whenever I have spare cash, I will contribute to my family. Of cause I am using my own money for my own expenses. A num of times my parents will give me some money to tide me thru as well. I quit my retail job around November and part of the reason being me already finished paying my school fees worth around 5k for a part time course for about 10 months.

6. (2011 and I was 20 years old) Rested for a month and I am now working as a Coordinator in a Real Estate Company. I know its not a job of my interest and will not bring me anywhere far. But I am working for the sake of money and I wanna save enough for SIM, Uni. Initially I wanted to pursue my degree in SIM in year 2012 after I have save enough for it. So I called and checked for the criteria and I think I am really down on luck, they told me I need to have at least have a advanced diploma from any local poly or private institutions like MDIS OR 5 O level credits. Apparently I have none. So my alternative way is to check up local poly again for their part time courses. As usual, either advanced diploma or O level credits OR write an appeal letter to the poly.

My plans now:

I already have the appeal letter written and now I only have to wait for my results to out, add in my transcript and send the letter. I hope it can be successful so I can go on and study, make it to SIM, and get a better job.

I have nothing much to hope for already. Other than this to work out for me. I dont mind working just for my course fees, my ultimate goal is just to get a better job and give my parents and myself a better life. Thats all I really ask for :(

I am really stress enough. Sooooo many problems going thru my head. I just hope one problem can be lessen soon, which is this. To some I may sound very independent, to some it may be bullshit but its okay for me. As long my love ones are with me, nothing else matters, really.

I dont wanna be any independent girl/lady, I am still that petite girl who hopes there is someone for me to rely on whenever I face any problems, I can share everything and anything with him, without him complaining. Good or bad he is always there. Anyone like these out there? ^^

Being a independent girl is really tiring, if I am given a chance/choice, I dont want to be.

2011-04-11T11:58:00.000+08:00

Good things are bound to come to an end, this is what I've always believe in. & I also believe strongly that when you gain some you will lose some. The more you gain, the more you lose. All these are my personal beliefs.

Now, this news shouldn't be any new to everyone; I have since broke up with Aloysius days ago. From the reactions from everyone around me, I know they find it extremely hard to believe and digest. My parents never fails to question me each time they sees me, especially my mum, she still think I am cracking a joke, a big joke. I am drop-dead serious. This is NOT a joke and of cause I will never gamble my own happiness and future away just like that. So I have to make it clear, once and for all, this relationship cannot be salvaged. This decision of mine disappoints and hurt a lot of people I know.

But, just think about it: This is MY life, I make my OWN decision(s). I know how to make myself happy. I know what's the best for me. I believe my maturity level and thinking is somehow or rather higher than some of my friends because I am in the working society longer then anyone of them do. I know and understand more things and have seen more too. So that's why my EQ is higher than my IQ, & that also concludes why my IQ is so low that I can't even make it to ITE. Anw that's not the point. My main point is, I know what I am doing. Even if things doesn't work out and not going the way I them to me, I wouldn't regret cause at least I tried.

I thank each and everyone out there who express their concerns towards me. Who stands by me and really support me. I know who can I trust and who I cannot. Thru this matter, I have since learn more and understand my friends better. Sad to say, I saw the negative sides of them. Although most of them mean well and truly hope Aloy and me can get back together, I have to say they used the wrong approach and now I know what's happening (without anyone telling me), I think I should change my mindset again. I always thought, sincerely thought, my best friends should be on my side. However this is not the case. I felt betrayed and sad. Maybe this is my retribution for treating my best friend badly years ago. Although we are fine and good now but I still damn guilty over it. Always been thinking how to treat her better. This seriously gives me a damn good lesson. I am someone who loves staying around my best friends, especially those who have been around with me for years! So I really treasure them a lot. I believe thru many things that I have done, already shows what kind of friend I am. So when I being treated in a way which I feel betrayed, I began to wonder, have I not done enough as a good friend? Or have I done not enough to reach their expectations? If neither, why am I treated this way?!

I really, seriously don't understand.

To me, although some (good) friends of mine mentioned that they will support my decision, somehow I know and feel that they don't really mean what they say. You know, a girl/woman's instinct/6th sense. & apparently, nowadays my instincts and predictions come true for me every single time. Therefore, I'd rather trust and believe myself more than them. I can relate and understand how they feel. Everyone of them out there feels that Aloy and me is a model couple. We rarely quarrel, we behave and irritates each other like best friends, we can discuss serious matters most of the times, he always pacify me whenever I am feeling down and sad, even at times when I am unreasonable and just wanna quarrel, he gives me the best advices and acknowledge the things I have done for him. I believe this is one of the relationship most girls want. Me too, who doesn't. I know many will be thinking than why end things this way? I only can answer you this: "I follow my heart and feeling."

But, you guys dont know what happened during our relationship and what's beneath those happy smiles. All you guys seen are those happy and sweet moments. We rarely portray sides when we quarrel. So that also means don't freaking assume! It seriously annoys and irritates me max!

Right now, I have lost trust in many people. I have since closed myself up, again. I don't trust easily, & I lose trust easily. I may/can appear nice and all but deep down within me, I know what and how I feel. What I am showing doesn't mean what I am feeling.

Anyway I know I am the bad guy now and everyone or some people will just condemn me. Its fine, its alright. I still have friends who stand by me and respect my every decision. I am glad for it. Every other day there will be at least 3 friends of mine asking me what happened. I don't mind repeating the story to them. I have been repeating for at least a week now. & still some are waiting for my story to be told. I don't mind, really. I feel really very apologetic. Am so speechless now.

"Never forget something that once made you smile."

Something so true. I will remember everything for sure, and keep them deep within me. Without Aloy I can never be who I am now. A better Alicia. Ask anyone around, my friends or whoever. Did I change for the better or not? Idk, this is only up to you guys to decide.

Its hard for us to remain as good friends now, but someday, I still sincerely hope we can and we will be. No doubt everything has come to an end now, but its also the start of another new beginning. I know most people out there are having a lot of doubts, thoughts and questions. A lot of sayings and rumors going around, but I believe time will let everything subside and everyone will eventually forget about everything and move on. The tough time is now, as long I can mae it thru, I will become someone even stronger.

Although I still wish that there is someone out there for me to rely on, no matter what happens; good or bad. Who doesn't complain or whine when I rely too much on him. I guess, let nature take its course. Someone like this may or may not appear, Idk. I just wanna be happy right now.

2011-04-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

At the age of 20, I am still pondering hard on what should I do next.

I wanted to move on to SIM very badly, really..

Although its just a cert that some agrees that it doesnt do help much in certain work arena, but I do agree with some friends who told me this:

"A Uni cert can be used to slap people's face and show them you actually have the capability to do well in life when they have the cheek to say you are lousy."

No? I actually do agree on this statement very very much.

There's many factors that makes me wanna to get a Uni cert badly.

I really don't wanna lose out anymore. I already lost the chance to study in ITE which can actually allows me to move on to poly and get a recognized cert in this tiny red dot.

I really envy my bunch of friends a lot, a lot.

They went to ITE after N levels and O levels and today, upon getting their ITE results, they all managed to make it to poly and continue their "typical student route".

I don't mind spending my time like how they do but since I already lost the chance,

I will strive hard for my next best option, which is SIM.

I still wanna go back to my secondary school proudly and tell my teachers that I graduated from a local Uni, although I went on the route less traveled.

I really wanted to show and prove to people that I am not useless.

I am always trying my best to be one of the best, really.

I don't wanna to fail my parents, I think its one of the ways I can repay them.

It may be nothing much but still I wanna do it.

I am sure I can.

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Ok, I am gonna check on SIM's website and will be going to their open house too.

This year shall be a year of earning money and next few years (if I managed to get it),

shall be studies and studies and more studies.

& yes, I will make this work.

I am so determined this time.

Don't wanna make the same mistake ever again.

2011-03-14T00:22:00.000+08:00

I wonder who still read my blog? :*)

2011-03-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

"As time goes by, I am not the first person most of my friends will think of whenever something great/awesome/happy/sad/demolished/sinful/whatsoever happens to them."

Just because they made many more friends who think they understand them better and more.

Just because they have a soul mate who is there for them always.

Just because they feel awkward..

But hey, I am not gonna take "feeling awkward" as an excuse.

Just because after days/months/years of not seeing each other,

you (still) perfectly understand that there will be someone there for you no matter what.

Just like how you can always go home and find your family,

whenever you run into some unhappiness when you are out there.

Just to let you know,

I appreciate these kinda friends more.

Just because they have faith and trust in me;

even after so many days/months/years have gone by.

2011-03-02T16:35:00.001+08:00

Alright a new month! March 2011 :)

Time seriously fly! &I have so much just so much to do! A number of things happened since the start of 2011 and I really am too lazy to blog them up although I really want to :( One reason is being I am very reluctant to delete my blog cause I loveee my blog's name too much! Still remember I created secretmomentum in my bff's; Seaweed's house! :) Another reason being this stupid blogger has been creating tons of idiot problems for me! Like unable to change the font color and even enlarge the fronts! How annoying man! /: Feels like deleting this whole thing away but cant bear to! Such a dear to me, hehe. Been with me since like ... ? Idk la!

All I remember was this blog has been around since like more than 5 years ago!

Twitter is the damn in thing now and everyone seems to abandon their blog, Facebook and all and just actively stays in Twitter! I think that includes me! Everything is so nicely created for us everywhere! Especially in iPhone! Useful and damn useless apps are all available for downloads just within touches away! *iPhone ma, touchscreen! Just touch!*

& there was once I am trying to find if theres any suitable apps for iPhone for blogging and I found an app; Blogpress, which cost US$4.99 -_____- Siao! I buy for what?! So this brings me to another level of not blogging already.

I know I am not blogging for a living, for anyone, any purpose for anything. I just wanna blog so that when I grow old, I still have this blog with me to let me reminiscent my past. That will be very sweet and nice :*)

I seriously wanna earn more money and I know I am not those hardcore bloggers with good looks, good command of language, good Photoshop skills, good photographs taken, interesting and whats not. So blogging is out :( I am not gifted with any kind of good skills with entitles me to be in good in coaching; though I really wanna try tutoring! Primary English or Chinese!!! :D I am only capable in that. Sigh. Maybe I should look out for any in these areas or start asking my friends. So I have another alternative in mind. Yeaps. So ... In any case I hope this works out :)

So.. My job as a coordinator in a real estate company? Well. I was sooooo anticipated for the first few days, than I got bored. Ya I am so -____- k. After some thoughts I guess I am really someone who isnt really good in sitting down there for hours or leaving me alone to do work, no I CANT.

I must be free and easy, so..

I am really contradicting by saying this la, k, but I guess retail and mass media still suits me the best? Ok I really dont know :( I dont wanna be trying and skipping around when years to come just to try and see which job suits me more :( I just need interest, fun, stable and something which I can earn money from it!

Most importantly, something that motivates me for doing my job well!

Life sucks when you have no money /:

2011-02-22T21:51:00.001+08:00

WHY MUST I HAVE MY FATHER'S LAZINESS AND MY MOTHER'S STUBBORNESS?!

I seriously hate myself.

& sometimes I hate coming home too.

Cause it doesn't have that warmth and care I used to have.

All in its' eye are money money and money and nthg else matters more.

Why am I so useless and incapable?!

Why can I have have that drive and motivation success people have?!

Why am I having so many mfucking problems revolving around me all the time?!

All I wanna know is:

When can I be successful and get recognized too,

& earned huge bucks so most problems will become no problems?

I still wanna be that carefree and almost happy-go-lucky girl,

that most of my friends know :<

Perhaps you don't know:

I am a very selfish girl. I hate being hurt and left behind.

So I always tell people 99% of what I know and kept the 1% within me.

Cause to me, no one is trustworthy enough for me to tell them everything.

I need something for me to have back up on cause I need assurance from all.

Yes,

I am a problematic girl.

2011-01-25T02:25:00.000+08:00

To a friend whom I'd known for years.

Or at least since Secondary 1.

Got to know you are in Paris having your exchange program and from what I can see, everything is so well and good for you. Din't know what to say. 有千言万语想要说给你听。。但，

Never mind haha, so I will just wish you well :)

I have been reading your blog ever since you created it and always know what you are doing, in general :)

2011-01-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

Friendship.

I'd love everyone to treat this post as a friendship post,

& not so shallow and always feel people can relate relationships and love as bgr only.

I'd always love to portray my feelings and voice them out in general,

unless otherwise stated.

& I love the quote in the above picture so much that,

I find myself relate it to my friendships only.

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I find it so ironic when your so called best friends find you annoying when you tries to tells them your most heart felt feelings. After some time they may accuse you of not trying hard enough to let them know how you feel, but deep inside you know you tried but the outcome wasn't very desirable.

This feeling is so uncomfortable and dishearten..

Cause people who are so close to you are supposed to be there for you no matter what, they should be the one who don't mind whatever you have becomes when outsiders mind, other than your own family they should be the ones who stood by you rain or shine, these are the people you know you still can count on no matter how long you din't talk to each other.

When I say supposed to, I mean when this friendship/relationship has already taken steps so high up and will speak a language no ones understand except the parties involved. All it takes sometimes is just a visit, a text or even a smile.

Sometimes all it takes is just a small step and you will have a golden friendship that anyone should ever have, but why..

I feel that I already took so many steps yet I got back nthg in return? Not that I really wish for anything grand or big, all I wanted is someone who can really stood by me no matter what. This feeling is great, isn't it? True I aint a noble friend and I can't expect my friends to be perfect and I know I am not either. But I can say that no matter what happens to my best friends I always try my best to help, like I said before, I may not be the best advisor you can find, but at least I can be a great listener and will just try my best. I believe there are several friends of mine who can vouch for me.

Seriously speaking, isnt this enough for a basic friendship? Why is some people so greedy?

I just feel that I am losing my close friends whom I really really really care about one by one, I can't name them out. & I find myself telling my problems to people I rarely to, and no feelings for.

(No feelings in terms of good friends)

& I find it pathetic.

2011-01-18T13:19:00.001+08:00

Random Thoughts:

Sometimes I admire my friends and their relationship not cause I dont have a good one myself,
just that I feel each couple is different and they can never be the same,
no matter how hard one is trying to be like others.
I think I admire those points which I dont have in my own relationship in other people's,

Its kinda like envy but definitely not those jealously that kills' kind.
Its like a motivation for myself so and I will think what can I do to change myself for the better,
so the relationship I have for myself will improve and even have a breakthrough.

It a strong feeling that its hard for me to put them in words,
but I believe most people with positive mindsets will have the same thinking as I do :)

There's so much to learn from every relationship I know, or even knew.

2011-01-17T12:27:00.000+08:00

Tree, Wind & Leaf.

People call me Tree.
I had dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, or good figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary gal. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was because I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my gal, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She was a good actress and me a demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I didn't want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I didn't show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.

Once I reached home, I couldn't breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who didn't acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.

It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay".

Leaf

People call me Leaf.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another gal.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits.

But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me.

Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind

People call me Wind.
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.

When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my seniors scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It's because leaf never want to leave tree. I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.

Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.

I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?"

She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head"

She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell.

During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

Things don't happen the way we want them to be... cause something or someone better is meant for each one. God knows what's best, let's learn from our past... enjoy our present and look forward to our future. Life goes on and on!

2011-01-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Captivation of your enchanting face, is just what I ever wanted.

Beautiful moments should always stay.

Oh HI!

2010-12-31T23:35:00.001+08:00

Saying goodbye for the one last time.

Countdown for the year 2011! Oh yeah it was both awesome and unanticipated. I think its kinda like my bad year cause I was sick this countdown. The day just before the end of 2010. Actually I was sick for many days, approximate for 1 week, and its the 2nd time I was sick on the same month! SO I believe my mum and bro passed it to me :(

Anw I dressed and delayed the timing for quite a bit cause of me bing sick and needing to rush over to Seaweed's house to get her IC from her family, than rushed down to Central to meet up with Aloy.

Seaweed's mum was at first very very very scared when I called her to ask her for Seaweed's IC! Cause Seaweed's too busy that night working and so she forgot to call her mum. Some misunderstanding here and there but than cleared up when I reached her place! Hehe, just like my mum, really. I think mums all behave just like the same! Very typical, haha. But we all know they care :*)

Rushed to take a bus to Central and was so super worried that it might jam due to countdown! Plus I was taking 190 la so passing by town area that night really almost a heart attack! But anw I reached the place rather smoothly and my friends havent reached Bugis where we were suppoed to be meeting.

Aloy was so nice to accompany me for my first meal of the day despite me telling him I have no appetite but changed my mind again, he ordered food for me and paid for them as well, took my bag when he hates carrying heavy stuff :*) Really thank you so much Aloy. For doing so much for me and I din't really gave you a good time cause I wasnt feeling very well.

Walked to Bugis with Aloy and the short route there was splendid! Cause Aloy was there with me.

Met up with Xuan and Xuewei and her bf, Boon Yao, & off we go to Double O! I swear I dint know Double O is a club :( I thought I went to search for its pictures online it isnt really what I saw! I thought its supposed to be like Timbre. Anw I was thinking, since we were there already and its countdown, an invite from Xuewei so why not just stay and join in the fun? But what I was expecting the least was definitely the entrance fees and it was a club.

Dropping the idea of us not knowing its a club, the entrance fees of women $35 and men $45 is already a drop-eye thing for Aloy and me. I feel super apologetic cause Aloy paid for everything. He isnt the kind who enjoys clubbing or drink. So means he literally hates it. But since we are there and already paid for it, and its my first time plus its countdown, he decided to let it go and just let me be. I did talk to him thru out and dint really move around much without him or dance or drink that much. Its perfectly fine with me cause I only wanna make sure Aloy feels comfortable.

But of cause because of this Aloy and me did have a small tiff after we went home. He doesnt like the fact that when I am sick and still I am going to clubbing and spending a bomb for him in places he totally doesnt enjoy makes him even more annoyed.

But well he dint blame my friends or whatsoever la. He is just against the idea of entering a club. He prefer places with more quiet surroundings and all. & I already promised him not to club with him or maybe not going club at all. Well I doubt I will frequent clubs cause it is just not my cup of tea.

Seriously as my first experience in a club, I dont really enjoy it. Maybe due to me being sick but its not me really. Maybe I might enjoy Mambo Night or with my friends idk, haha. Not me for sure.

Seaweed was drunk that night and so me and Xuan kept staying near her and trying to take care of her. Guys that we dk kept trying to take advantage of her, like so obviously. Talking to her, offering her their drinks. Lucky we are in a rather big group with guys around? Haha. Glad she is fine afterwards and thanks to Xuewei and Boon Yao for sending her home.

Sometimes we all need to drink to release the stress and lousy emotions within us.

Above: Aloy and me looks like quarreling but nope we are just talking LOL.

Aloy and me went home rather early, like around 0130AM? Yupp. We both just cannot take it anymore haha. After all its a rather pleasurable night and sure if the next time round I am asked to go again, I may go? Hmmmm not sure la. Friends who know me well knows that I am very on one. If I can I will go, if not just save the best for the next time! :)

2010-12-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

Life sucks at the moment.

Actually I already recovered from the worst fever I ever had, had stomach flu for a week and just finally recovered but my mum and bro was sick and so they passed their virus to me. Am on my way to being a sicko la :<

Cant afford to be sick before I start work cause I have to enjoy myself max this week! So much things to do and enjoy!

OH YAY! Speaking of it, my life has been pretty smooth sailing! I found a job as a admin-real estate staff! OMG you people just cannot imagine how super happy I am! :) Am starting my job officially this coming Monday and I had a trail day on last Wednesday and I can tell you I LOVE MY JOB! ♥

Everything is just so good la! I had a very nice, flexible and funny agent that I am working for, a very nice colleague by the name of Michelle (I always have a colleague by the name of Michelle no matter where I work! In Precious Thots outlet, Precious Thots Atrium, Gracious Aires all have lo! fated to be with this name whenever I work liao LOL).

I wanna work long for this job. I will work hard. I will do my best for it seriously. & I hope my clients will not 为难 me LOL HAHA.

Its flexible, I can wear casual unlike those formal wear that most OLs wear, I can reach just sligggggghtly later and leave sligggghtly earlier due to lesson, can slack awhile in between :P, food nearby is damn cheap also la seriously! OMG HAHA. Like I am praising this job to no end.

But still me need to work hard get over the probation period to get a pay raise and learn everything that I can, as much as possible! :) I told my mum that I am confidence that I will work for long and I just love my job! Everyone whom I told I got the job is super happy for me! I am so grateful for you people! Esp my mum, Aloy and dear friends like Pohling, Seaweed and FZ! :) You guys rocks and my life rocks too! ♥

Oh my agent told me that after having experience in this area, either I will become a agent like him, working for a prolong period as a admin-real estate staff or just quit. HAHA. He is interesting la. He is only like 10 years older than me lo. Aloy got no feeling when I tell him -.-

Well shall update my wonderful times with my awesome friends with tons lots of pictures soon beh! :) To me, the end of 2010 is a definitely awesome for me, like seriously.

& I will be celebrating my last day of 2010 with Aloy! & Seaweed and Dan, Xuan and Andrew, Xuewei and bf! Happy 4 couples counting down together, its gonna be another rock my socks night!

Happy New Year! Hope I have a awesome 2011 :)